Kitty♥

Too Late.

2010-08-04T20:28:00.002+08:00

Everything was too late, but what can i do about it?

Things are sort of going well recently, i passed my physic(like finally~!) and i got 14/16 for my e-maths test. Passed 2.4km, so expecting a bronze for my NAPFA(; and i passed my first round of choir audition with nice praise from ms angila, she praised that my voice is the voice that she is looking for(: Although everything went well, but i still find something missing in me..

I started going to IMVU again, but nothing feels the same anymore. I do chat with a few guys but they just can't replace you at all :( I tried! I seriously, fcking tried my best to kick you out of my mind! But i just can't! I feel so screwed up, even with so much achievements! I just can't smile and enjoy the sense of achievement and success. I can't anymore, with you gone from my life. Even after the praise i got from ms angila, the applause everyone gave, i was falling into a daze until jacqueline shouted my name. What was in my mind was your face, i was thinking about your reaction when i told you about what i had achieve. I really wasn't desperate to want you back because i need a companion. Even with sweetie, babe and girl with me, i still want you, i want you in my life. ASHY is important to me, as well as you.

I deleted your messages, it was so hard to mark all and press the delete button, but i did it. I deleted our msn chat history. Every of this deleting things is like cutting off a part of my heart.. It hurts and bleed so much, yet i must do it.. I don't dare to bring up that topic to you anymore, I'm scared that you will flared and that it will spoil your day. As much as you want me to be happy, i want you to be happy too. I delete them so i won't see and think of you, think of the past. But those memories in my brain, are engraved deeply, no matter how hard i tried to cover them up, they are still there.
The moment of intimation, the moment of care and concern, the moment of emoing, the moment you lean so close, the moment of us just sitting there doing nothing yet feeling so sweet&blessed. Every single details just became clearer as the day goes by. It should have fade... why is it getting clearer..
Boy, have you forgotten about all these memories already? The best day of your life, i created it. The worse day of your life, i caused it. If only i can redo everything and amend my mistakes, i'm willing to exchange this chance with anything i had. I'm willing to exchange it with everything, becuz you meant so much to me. I know your love for me won't burning like the scorching hot sun, but my luv for you will, and will always be. 8billion people in the world, and i only want you~

Choir.

2010-08-02T20:51:00.004+08:00

The more i look at the choir now, the more i'm sure that i will and definately will go to NP LinkaGe. Every moment in this choir made me miss the choir in the past, when it is still lead and conducted by Mr Goh & Mr Yiong. And every seconds in the choir, juz made me more sure of my goal of getting into NP LinkaGe.

My reasons for going to NP LinkaGe
`- The conductor that i adore a lot conducts that group
`- Joining an a cappella choir will be able to bring my singing to a whole new level
`- I don't want to sing classical for the rest of my life, i want to try pop songs too
`- I miss listening to the different life stories told by Mr Goh
`- Mr Goh is serious with pop, so i guess he will be a good conductor(:

So now i have found all both my main goals(: Since many said i'm craft out to sing plus i really luv singing and expressing/venting my feelings through singing. Hence, LinkaGe will be my next goal after i graduate from secondary, and i hope after LinkaGe, i will be able to go into Symphony Chamber Choir(Mr Yiong's choir)xP
Veterinary is another one, but i guess i can't be a full-fletched vet le :/
Don't want to make daddy fork out another sum of money just to let me go oversea for further studies that's required to be a vet. Juz hope all these will be able to give me a nice pay in th future and let daddy mummy live well(:

Extra.

2010-08-01T21:49:00.002+08:00

Hadi Abdul if you happen to see this, help me tell nursila what i wrote here.

Ms Nursila,

I don't blame you for calling me immature and childish, because you don't understand, to be exact, you don't even know me in the first place. Yes, you might have know part of me, from how hadi has described it. But that don't give you the rights, neither the reasons to judge my character. If the way i care for my boyfriend, and the way i love him to you is childish and an act of immaturity, i don't know what to say either. In love, there's no right or wrong. You have your way and your style to love a person, by only chatting with him once a week and don't mind about it, i don't. In my game of luv, my rule is simple and sweet, there's only six words "I need you to need me" that's all. I can't imagine how do you nurture romance our of one a chat once a week. (You judged me in the first place, so here i am giving you my judgement). I'm not trying to say that the way i luv him was right, i clearly know i had made plenty of mistakes! But sad to say, i realised it too late. If he want to give you that chance to stead with him, i've got nothing to say, but give your my blessing followed by a cursing. I would have gave your my deep felt blessing if you hadn't judged me. I don't mind being judged and tell my flaws, but i hate it when people judge me just by what others have said and not by observing it themselves.
He said that you're mature, super mature that kind. Hadi, you hate my friend badmouthing you to me, i hate it equally when your friend does it! I don't talk back to your accusation doesn't means that i'm weak or speechless to admit my mistakes. I just don't want to end up quarreling. Call me desperate for all you want, i won't deny that fact. Yes, i am desperate to get you back. You said i smile smile when you ask for break up then ask you back, what do i want. Let me tell you, read my blog post on 14july. I agree to that break up cuz you said you really wanted to let go, i smiled becuz i don't wish you feel bad or guilty. I knew letting go was wrong... If only i had clung on.. FMS!
Lastly, thanks for your accusation and scolding and all those misunderstandings. I'm of no place to ask you back to my side anymore. I can't. Cuz i don't dare. And i am no longer qualified to be your girlf anymore. I can't bring you happiness, only unhappiness. But i guess nursila can. I really luv you.. but no matter what i said or do to try to prove it, you find them as craps. I'm no longer myself anymore, will not be and never will be.
You're like air, no matter how hard i try to catch, when i open my hand to see, there will always be nothing. You're like water, no matter how much i've caught, you will still slip through my hands..

I really luv you, always will be. I promised to wait, so i won't date.

Surprises.

2010-07-20T20:34:00.002+08:00

HAHA! Horny bastard! I said i luv surprises, but i actually expecting it from him 5mths later ><
mm, but still, thanks for buying me the ticket to watch Blood Pledge though i didn't managed to watch it with you, cuz promised to watch Inception with bestfs le(: You know i kept thinking of him giving me a surprise after 5months, and we couple back. I kept thinking of the same surprise, clearly knowing that it will be impossible :/ And now he seems like he don't want me anymore :(
Haish, maybe like you said i know how to trust, but i seriously need to learn how to trust him fully. How to? When i used to trust everyone fully and all i get back was betrayal?! It was slowly that i realised no one is worth my trust anymore. Until he appear. Then i realised that without my trust it hurts him :(
I start to regret agree to let go... We drift more and more.. Below are some words i kept in my heart for a period of time already, i want to say it out but i don't want you know, so i shall say in chinese.

我很后悔和你分手，可是我又有一种感觉这个选择是对的.. 我该怎么办？
每次想起我们的回忆，我的心都会很痛。
我好想你，你知道吗？

Decision.

2010-07-14T21:57:00.002+08:00

Finally this torturous day is going to end..
14July.. It was supposed to be our 3rd month and we should be celebrating it, but today, writing the date was so hard, i keep tremble whenever i write this date on my worksheets. But still i got to a conclusion, i'm letting you go now. Read properly, is now. I want my baby boy back in the future, 5 months later, a happy boy. By then, hopefully i'm more matured, and won't bring you tears anymore. 5 months, i'm willing to wait, i can promise you my feelings will not fade, but i'm not sure about yours.
Boy, do you remember? Some day before our 2nd month we had a quarrel, that time you keep wanted to let go of me, and we made a promise. I said i will let you have a period of time to stabilize your poly life, and within this period i won't contact you/pester you. I tried my best to recall how you replied to that, but i can't.. Somehow you rejected that idea i guess? But this time, i don't know.. Maybe you really don't want me le, but i chose to lie to myself that this time will be just like that promise, we will be back after your exam..
I want to see you smile for real this time round, not feeling guilty anymore. I guess i really don't have time to mourn over this break up stuff le.. i wanted to cry, but tears couldn't come out.. Tomorrow will be the choir audition to select people to take part in the ABRSM. ABRSM and SYFCJ is what all singers will want to participate in, i am no exceptional, i want to take part, and i don't want to be rejected in the first round of audition.

[11:40pm] I will do well for the next 5 months ahead, just like how you will(:

Scarred.

2010-07-12T00:19:00.002+08:00

I want to protect you. But how, when i am so scarred?
I meant it from the bottom of my heart when i said i want to protect you from all the misery, pain and despair. But i don't know which way i should go. Am i giving you long term misery by being together with you? Will the misery becomes short term if i take leave? I wanted to post something, but decided not to after re-reading our conversation for the 3rd time. I realised by hiding something from someone really can make that particular person you wanted to protect to feel better. For example, you hide the fact that you feel bad on our first date, if you had told me, i will had feel so guilty(which is what i am feeling right now). That was meant to serve as a joke, but i guess since that was our first date you can't read my mind well, and you took it to heart, i'm sorry about that :(
For the 1000 times i asked myself for the day, should i set you free? I really loved you with my heart and soul, hence i don't want to see you so sad. I could no longer give you any happiness, do you still want me? All i can provide you is pain and misery, i can no longer maintain the innocent, angelic impression in your heart anymore. The yee ying now is only a devil, a bad girl that you should distant from. I told myself to let go of you, set you free and let you find a better girlf to replace me. But my heart longs to hold on to you for every single second that it can. Le amo para siempre is not from the mouth, it's meant to say from the bottom of the heart and be kept in the bottom of the heart of the other person.
I'm still keeping my promise for you, which is i won't breathe a word to you that i had cried or what so ever. But sorry that i broke one of it :( which is i still can't be mature enough to understand you thoroughly. I tried too hard to cling on to this relationship that it's hurting you like hell. Maybe i should tell you this.. If you want to leave i won't stop you, neither will i stand in your way. Cux i can never ever bring myself to say break up. When never i think of breaking up, i think of the day in pageone, the face you had when i said those nasty things... When i think of breaking up, i can't help but think how my life will be like, when it's without you, like my of my previous post had mentioned, it will be no way better than now. I don't dare to think about breaking up, cux it hurts a lot. I don't like crying, cux my eyes are sensitive to tears, but my heart is just so weak that it cause my eyes to shed tears whenever it feels sad. Sorry that my blog posts are always so pessimistic.
To those who had happened to pass by this blog, erm, yea, dancing-dreamsinthe-dawn.blogspot.com used to be my blog, but i guess i grew tired of that blog, i still prefer this one to it. Simply cux, i luv this blog's add, suits me better than dancing dreams. I wanted to answer what majority had asked about, which regards to why i call it dancing dreams in the dawn. But i jux don't feel like discussing about it now. So yea, will probably post about it in the next post. Hopefully tomorrow. Last but not least, hope spain wins later on match(: So baby can win lot and lots of money xP and also i feel the same as li hao, i believe that spain will win holland with a score, 2-1~! <3

Mistake.

2010-07-09T19:33:00.003+08:00

Yes i admit i feel guilty about what i had done yesterday..
But i already said i won't apologise to you this time round. What i said wasn't wrong at all. I won't deny that i'm in the wrong too for dampening your spirit and kicking up a big fuss over such small matter. But that doesn't mean what i said was wrong. You could have told me you want to spend some precious time with your pals, as it's a rare opportunity. I would have understand that. You asked me to go sleep is like chasing me off like that...
I can never forget what you told me.. "so if all you get is sadness and despair why the fuck you still with me?!" since last night you stay this, it keep replaying like a spoiled recording inside my mind. I don't know why i so concerned about this sentence. At first i thought it is the vulgar in the sentence, but then i think about it thoroughly.. Is not. I do mind when you use vulgar on me, but that's only 10% of why i mind. The other 90% is cux, i really want be with you. With you is not all sadness and despair that i got, i have tons of happiness too. But i believe you are the one getting tons and tons of unhappiness from a suckish girlf like me.. First, suspicion. Second, moodswings. Third, mood-spoiler. Did you even get happiness from me? I'm such a failure. I told cia how bad i felt, but i don't want to say sorry. I don't want to admit i was in the wrong. I'm sick and tired of always.. crawling to your feet and begging for forgiveness.. Cia, thank you for spending your whole recess to accompany me to emo, and spending time to think of what to say to console me. I'm fine. Juz that i'm too stubborn. I don't know what to say about this anymore.

Today physic practical, fun. Understand better through practical than theory. yea, that's all.

Fair.

2010-07-06T23:52:00.002+08:00

I do have the time to text you.
It's not like I'm damn busy.
But you used to text me first you remember?
I LIKED it when you start the conversation and not always me starting it.
If you find me, no matter how busy i am, i will also gave up all my work to chat with you. I don't mind giving you all my 24hours.

Haish, i seriously don't know what the fxxx is wrong with me, when i can't contact you..
I flare talking to anyone.
Gonna go sleep, 5hours of sleep, hope enough lohx.

Going berserk

2010-07-06T23:48:00.003+08:00

I think i must be going crazy.
Finished my work, and doing extra.
Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo not like me at all..
Maybe when one wants to run away from fear and stress, will in another way, stress herself with work.
That's the freaking thing i am doing now.

Had only 3hours of sleep yesterday, yet it feels like i didn't sleep at all :/
But today i wasn't sleepy at all.
Instead i just keep trying to keep myself busy, so yea.. i won't have time to think of.. Him..

FML.

Texts

2010-07-06T22:48:00.003+08:00

I pretended that i can live w/o your messages, but today, I'm feel so suffocating w/o texting you, or talking to you on msn.. I saw you in facebook, and all the fxxx i can do is to.. i don't know, why can't the stupid suffocating sensation just leave me alone?
Stupid me.
Stupid life.

Smoked. Shioked.

When I'm gone..

2010-07-06T19:46:00.003+08:00

When I'm gone from your life, will you regret or rejoice?
Was I a good girlf?
I hope i was..
I hope when i am gone, you are smiling.
I hope when i am gone, you are rejoicing.
I hope when i am gone, you are happy.
I hope when i am gone, you are still feeling the same.
I hope when i am gone, you still continues your life like how it should be.
I hope when i am gone, you are not depress.
I hope.. I hope..
How noble all the above are..
But deep down i actually hope these ways..
I hope when i am gone, you are sad over my departure.
I hope when i am gone, you woke up in the middle of the night, missing me.
I hope when i am gone, you dreamt about me when you sleep.
I hope when i am gone, you feel depress over it.
I hope when i am gone, the smile on the face becomes a fake one.
I hope when i am gone, your life becomes a mess.
I hope when i am gone, you miss my presence every single second.

Though the second "hoping" is very selfish, but, which girl won't want it like that? Which girl won't hope that the boy miss her when she's gone from his life? There's a lot of things i hoped, but it's only a fantasy...
Actually, i just hope you are happy every moment, your sadness breaks my heart, I don't know since when i fall in luv with you.. When you were always there for me when i am sad, happy, angry, emoing, crying, laughing, smiling, blushing and all my other emotions, you were there to share with me. When i am have success in choir you were there to share the joy with me, when i can't finish writing my english mid-year paper you were there to worry with me, when i was being accused by mummy, you were there to feel frustrated with me, every moment you were there with me. But, why are we drifting now? :(
Do you know I hate the me i am now?
Do you know I hate putting up fake smiles when I'm actually crying behind the screen?
Can you still feel it when i cry?
Can you still feel it after i put extremely lots of smilies in msn when i cried?
I acted, like a fool, in exchange of your smile and happiness.
I never regret to act like a professional in front of you, it feels silly to me, but as long as the prize is your smile, everything is worth it.
You hate the feeling of guiltiness, i hate it as much too, when i know my sadness make you guilty i feel guilty too! Cux.. Never once did it crossed my mind that i want to make you sad/guilty/unhappy. Do you still remember the first time we meet? The time we went to vivo? When nutnut and arull is behind us and we are facing the window on the seat? Remember we both cried(you were holding back your tears)? That was the first time i feel your sadness baby. That time i was puzzled, why is there an aching feeling in my heart when i see you so sad. My brain can't remember things well baby, but i had always remember how sad you look back then, and it was because of what i said :/
Whenever i walk back home from school, i remember when we used to met there once, and you were so tired, furthermore i didn't even allow you to touch me at all. When i walk back home now, i remember that time when you walked me home, all you asked from me was a teddy bear hug, and i didn't gave you, I'm really a bad girlf right?
Do you remember the songs i dedicated to you, and the two songs i sent you?
Here's one more, i just hope you like it(:

Victoria Acosta - Could this be love

Wake up this morning,
just sat in my bed.
8a.m first thing in my head,
is a certain someone, who's always on my mind.
He treats me like a lady in every way,
he smiles and warms me through out the day.
Should i tell him "i love you"?
Wish i knew how to say~

[Chorus]
Could this be love that i feel?
So strong, so deep and so real.
If i lost you would i ever heal?
Could this be love that i feel?
Could this be love that i feel?
So strong, so deep and so real.
If i lost you would i ever heal?
Could this be love that i feel?

The way he looks,
so deep in my eyes.
Our hearts so warm,
I just want cry.
And he's so hardworking,
he wants to be someone.
Should I tell him that "i love you"?
What if he doesn't says it too?
I'm getting nervous, what should i do?

[Chorus]
Could this be love that i feel?
So strong, so deep and so real.
If i lost you would i ever heal?
Could this be love that i feel?
Could this be love that i feel?
So strong, so deep and so real.
If i lost you would i ever heal?
Could this be love that i feel?

Will it be my turn?
Two hearts beating together as one.
No more loneliness.
Only love, laughter and fun.

[Chorus]
Could this be love that i feel?
So strong, so deep and so real.
If i lost you would i ever heal?
Could this be love that i feel?
Could this be love that i feel?
So strong, so deep and so real.
If i lost you would i ever heal?
Could this be love that i feel?
Could this be love that i feel?
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That's all for the 3rd song dedication. Three months, three songs dedication, every time to tell a different message(;
Do you remember that two days when we were sitting at woodlands cc?
The same two times that i suddenly became emo? Millions of thoughts were going through my mind, but the first time, i just tell you i was too tired hence throwing a temper, surprisingly you believed my "lie". Don't be angry with me for lying, cux i don't want you to be sad again..
The second time, you made the face and i laughed it off, you're really cute(:
But i actually hope you forced me say out what was in my mind :/
Remember 3rd July i hugged you when you came? Not jux cux i miss you, but also cux i scared i will lose you ><

Pulse of heartache

2010-06-29T23:14:00.002+08:00

Quite a period of time has passed since i last post.

I know you are too busy to even visit this blog anymore.

I remembered that time when i decided to reopen this blog, it was for you(:

Mmm.. That time was supposed to help me remember all those memories we shared,

but all i posted were sad sad stuff ><

I'm such a failure :/

I always had a feeling when i looked back at the past conversation we first had.

Every pulse of my heart, brings a wave of pain, which numbs my veins.

My hands feel numb and my heart start aching.

I'm so dumb aren't i?

Because you said, you only want me in your life and your heart only beat for me,

i feel that everything was worth it >~<

Bottling Things Up

2010-06-18T00:50:00.001+08:00

I choose to bottle every things up from now on.
I won't tell, I won't share, cuz no one care.
So yea, maybe will stop blogging le.
Nothing to say also :/

A Killing Love..

2010-06-13T22:04:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry..
Recently i had been saying this to you a lot of time.
You must have been dread of it already..
I don't know if you will still be reading what I post, but still I will continue writing my feelings here..
I'm sorry, really...
I don't know my love for you made you so stressed out.
I can't help you relief your exam stress instead I caused you to feel even more stress..
Why am I a pisces..?
Pisces are so sensitive and stupid..
Always suspecting this and that..
Why do I fxcking get jealous over a post and a reply..?
When I should know you're just joking about it..
I hate myself.. Hate my own character.. Hate my brain and mind..
I will never suspect you again.. Never..
If this relationship really tears apart, it's my fault..
When you love me, i don't treasure.
Instead i keep do things to make you hate me.
Make you get dread of me, and tired of me..
I'm not going to disturb you for the rest of your holidays anymore.
Just hope you enjoy yourself.
Put me behind, forget about my existence and really relax and enjoy yourself.
Because of my existence, you'll always have to worry about my feelings.
Because of me, you can't even fully enjoy yourself.
This time I will automatically disappear from your life.
Take your time and enjoy your holidays without me..
I had another song for you, hope you like it.

Janice - Goodbye

I can see the pain living in your eyes,
and I know how much you've try
You deserve to have so much more.
I can feel your heart and i symphatise,
and I'll never criticise
all you've ever meant to my life.
[Chorus]
I don't want to let you down.
I don't want to lead you on.
I don't want to hold you back from where you might belong.
You, would never ask me why my heart is so disguised.
I just can't live a lie anymore.
I would rather hurt myself,
than to ever make you cry.
There's nothing left to say but goodbye

You deserve the chance of the kind of love,
I'm not sure I'm worthy of.
Losing you is painful to me.
[Chorus]
I don't want to let you down.
I don't want to lead you on.
I don't want to hold you back from where you might belong.
You would never ask me why my heart is so disguised.
I just can't live a lie anymore.
I would rather hurt myself,
than to ever make you cry.

Though it's gonna hurt us both,
there's no other ways than to say, goodbye.

I don't mean to say goodbye to you by dedicating this song for you.

Clue-less..

2010-06-10T21:16:00.002+08:00

It's all my fault..
I was wrong for being too sensitive, unreasonable, bossy, petty and wilful.
Everytime when you go out with friends to enjoy yourself,
i'm always that bitch who dampens your mood..
You sounded angry, i don't know what i should do now.
I chose to hide inside my turtle shell for the time being.
I don't know how i should face you, i feel ashamed..
Speaking from the bottom of my heart,
I'm too bad a girl to be your girlf.
To deserve all your doting and pampering.
(Though it's getting lesser and lesser)
Am i too demanding?
If you are reading this, answer me will you..
I don't know how long you will be able to tolerate with my bad temper,
but i guess i juz have to treasure every moments that you are able to be with me.

Argh..
Juz why the fxck am i thinking so much..!!
Haix, i guess cuz i'm really scared.
Afraid that you will leave me one day
(Which i know is something that cannot be avoid..)
But i really hope we will last.
I know that when you're busy your tone will become unfriendly.
I won't blame you, cuz tomorrow you are having your last paper.
Good luck for you okay?
I'm sorry to have spoilt your mood today :/
Don't know if you will be reading, but really hope you are.

I rather don't want the msg
and exchange for you sweetness
I might be MIA for awhile,
like i've said to hide from my shame...

♥Heartbeat~♥

2010-06-10T18:36:00.002+08:00

"Can't you feel my heartbeat, beat, beat~♥"
Hahas, last combined rehersal in Cedar, nutnut and ciacia keep singing this to me.

Today damn happy ;D
Baby kept his promise, and sent me a "good morning" msg today ;D
That piggy went for his soccer session le.
Mm.. He so long never reply, duno what he doing uhx.
For sure forgot to wipe dry and wake around naked + "wet" xP
Baby yesterday night so devilish luhx!!
Post so many wierd wierd things on my Facebook wall
humph~♥
Don't dare post on his own wall,
only know bully me, and post on my wall xP
Evil monster~
Gave him 3 dares yesterday, but *haish~~~*
He double D do it tsk tsk~~
only did one *aiyo~~*

Just gave that silly monster a call.
Hahas! He actually pick it up siax~!!!
And the first word i heard when i put it to my ear is
"Yee Ying!!"
Omg~ ROFLOL~~
Stomach ache :P
He silly to the max le~ xP
♥Hadi♥

Detest

2010-06-09T23:21:00.003+08:00

*Humphx*
Hate it when i saw you praising another girl..
*grumbles*
...But i guess i should keep quiet about it and juz bitch about it here bahx..
Afterall, this is my blog, my say.
By your character, i know you won't confront me after you read it.
I don't know is whether you don't care or what.
Btw, i gave up trying to be the first to contact you everyday...
I msged you, you only reply after a few msgs + a few missed calls,
it makes me feels like i am so despo!
This feeling gross me out, and makes me feel like i wanna puke.
When you finally reply to my msg, and we start chatting,
i never complain that you reply so slow.
Instead i treasure every msg that you are able to send me.
But after awhile, you stop replying.
And i will be so dumb, waiting for hours for your reply.
Saw you online in Facebook.
"Pig!" Said by me.
"harlow!" Said by him.
":/"Said by me.
"yeaa halo"Said by me.
"look at your phone :@"Said by me.
-Silence, no reply again-
Am i really too despo for your accompany that you are suffocating now?
If it is, i promise i won't msg you after that anymore,
unless you msg me first..
Nich, although he treats he studies more important than me,
(Which you are also doing it right now)
but he will still msg me, no matter where he is.
He will also bother to tell me when he can't msg me, so i won't worry!
I'm not trying to make you sad by saying all these..
But sad to say, i do compare my boyf with my exs.
Sometimes i'm already used to boyf msging me,
i can't help but start to panic when you suddenly stop msging.
I love it when my boyf wish me good morning, in the morning,
it's really sweet to see you boyf say "morning baby" to you.
but i know you can't, you always wake up in the noon,
*sighs* even though it's like that, i still hope that you'll be the first to msg me everyday..
I juz hope to see you msg,
see you taking your own initiative to msg me first.
Not wait till 5pm in the noon, realise the despo-for-msg girl is suddenly gone,
then you msg me and ask me if i enjoyed my day.
What if one day i'm really gone?
What if one day something happens to me and i can't msg you?
Will you be panic and scare?
Will you contact me like how i contact you, worrying that something bad happens?
None of my family members understand my feelings as much as you do.
Whenevery they see me sad, they juz anyhow guess..
Thus when you are able to say out each and every of my feeling it really touch my heart.
Now i only have one tiny wish..
Our relation to go back to as sweet as it has started :/

Overboard

2010-06-09T18:22:00.004+08:00

Sometimes i really wonder,
what i meant to u..
Is it a lot?
Or juz a little bit?
But regardless how much i meant to you,
you meant the world to me baby.
The aching pain in my heart, that always appear when you left me alone,
I can no longer differentiate whether it is pain, sad, or juz plain loneliness..
If my joke, by daring you, was overboard, i apologise.
If you don't like it i won't do it anymore..
Sorry.

I realised that whenever, you stay over night for some events,
for example, chalet or your cousin's house.
We will start to drift apart ><;
The way and tone you talk/sms me will changed..
It became so unlovingly, and not as sweet as before le :/
I know i am not an understanding girlf, neither am i good and reasonable..
I'm trying my best to change for you,
I tried to be less sensitive, and ask for decrease my demand for your accompany.
I hope you see what i'd done for you, and really really appreciate it ><
There's a song i want to dedicate to you, bii.
Hope you like it(:

Danity Kane - Stay With Me

Raindrops fall from everywhere.
I reach out for you, but you're not there.
So i stood, waiting, in the dark.
With your picture in my hands, story of a broken heart.
[Chorus]
Stay with me,
don't let me go.
'Cause i can't live without you.
Just stay with me,
and hold me close.
Because i've built my world around you.
And i don't wanna know what it's like without you.
So stay with me, just stay with me~~~

I'm trying and hoping for the day,
where my touch is enough to take the pain away.
'Cause i've search for so long,
the answer is clear.
We'll be ok if we don't let it disappear.
[Chorus]
Stay with me,
don't let me go.
'Cause i can't live without you.
Just stay with me,
and hold me close.
Because i've built my world around you.
And i don't wanna know what it's like without you.
So stay with me, just stay with me~~~

I've searched my heart over so many, many times.
No you and I is like no stars,
to light the sky at night.
Our picture hangs up to remind me of the day,
you promised me,
we'd always be and never gone away.
That's why i need you to stay.
[Chorus]
Stay with me,
don't let me go.
'Cause i can't live without you.
Just stay with me,
and hold me close.
Because i've built my world around you.
And i don't wanna know what it's like without you.
Stay with me, stay, stay, yeah yeah.
Don't leave.
So i stay waiting in the dark.
~
Hahas, so sweet right this song :P
Can be found in the mp4 widget at the side>>
(Though when i'm posting this i haven put up the widget :X!!)
Baby, i remember there's once you tell me.
You heard other couple singing song to each other and is those lovey dovey ones.
So yeap,
though i'm shy to sing for you, i'll dedicate one here first(:
Next time when i have the courage then sing for you okay? :P
Don't need envy other le^^
Mm, last but not least,
i miss you ttm~
Aiya..!
There's something i wanted to say but forgot :/
tsk..
Will post it later if i remember(:

~iloveyou|uoyevoli~

Gave up \(-.-)/

2010-06-08T23:27:00.001+08:00

Grr!!
I gave up!
Gave up trying to put twit/plurk onto my blog ><
arghhhhhhh!!
Dammit~!

Decision :B

2010-06-08T22:44:00.002+08:00

Hahas, i think i shall stick to this blogskin for the time being(:
The previous one was wayyyyyyyy too complicated for me to edit ><
(Took me weeks and yet can't finish editing my profile!!)
Hee~ I rather spend time to find free time to go out with bii than editing this :X
Well, last went out with him was Sunday(6/6/10)
Was a really sweet and memorable one though :P
Not gonna describe and share it here xP
Though i know.. if i don't be diligent and update this blog..
There will be no other ways to help me remember stuff..
My brain seems to be unable to remember things like it used to..
I began to forget about simple things like what did i eat in the morning,
where did i go yesterday,
what song was i listening to before this.
Everything's starting to fade, i'm scared..
I never tell bii about this, he won't care also.
Probably he will juz say i'm over tired, that's why my brain can't remember anyth le..
I know it's not..
Sighs, if one day i know something's happening to my brain,
and i'm gonna die sooner or later, i will leave him i guess.
Don't wanna drag him down tie him down to a sick and dying person :(
Alrite.
Got to go edit finish th blog skin first, will continue this post later(:

I want to forget all the unhappy moments,
but now,
happy moments are gone too ><

♥Am i holding on too tight?♥

2010-06-08T16:41:00.002+08:00

Am i holding on too tight to you that it's starting to hurt?
I can keep you with me, but your heart juz slip from my hands so easily
No matter how hard i tried, it still slips away.
There are a lot of things i ponder over again and again,
but in order to not hurt you, i chose to say "Nahhx~ i'm juz thinking too much again~"
This sentence is beginning not to help anymore :/
It used to work, but now, even if i repeat it 10times it still can't change my thoughts.
Am i being too sensitive?
Or does your act really meant something?
I so hope that what I am doing are all worthwhile.
I think of you every night before i go to bed, remembering all our memories(:
When i open my eyes in the morning, it's still you i'm thinking about(:
But do you have the same feeling as I? :(
Before you sleep, you are thinking about tml,
when you woke up, you are thinking of Fb.
It was never me you think about first...
I remember there's once, I forced myself not to msg you for the whole day..
And it ended up, you only msged me at 5pm in the noon :(
That moment, I don't know how to react.
Was i supposed to be happy that you at least bothered to msg?
Or was i supposed to feel sad that so long after you woke up then you remember me?

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Recently, I noticed that you started saying,
"If your boyf is not a nerd.. blah blahx.."
"If your boyf is not so busy.. blah blahx.."
"If I'm gone from your life.. blah blahx.."
I don't like all these hypothetical questions!!
I don't need all these hypothetical questions either!!
All i want is you, your attention and most of all your care and concern..
Not you spending time to think how i will live if you didn't step into my life!
Since you really want to know how my life will be without your existence,
I can daringly tell you, it wouldn't be any better than now.. Really..
I know i'm one who can't stand loneliness, and that i'm afraid to be lonely..
Cuz i makes me feel abandoned..
Maybe it's juz a fxcked up phobia from young, but i juz feel so.
I ask for your accompanyment cuz i don't feel secured, cuz i'm missing you ><
If my demand for attention and accompanyment makes u vex.. i'm sry..
:(

Is Your Luv True?

2010-05-28T19:57:00.002+08:00

Juz like the title of this post.. BabyBoy is your luv for me true?
Today went to meet baby at woodlands at 2pm, he was already waiting there when i reached, sweetie, tQ for always waiting me ;D At first we planned to go woodlands cc, but when reached there then notice it was closed on public holidays :/ Ignored him throughout the whole walking journey, and was msging cia.. Cuz after receiving his sms saying that he had to leave at 4pm i felt kinda sadded :( In order to meet him, mum talked to me sacartiscally and said that I kept going out recently. Argh... I don't know lahx, maybe even if i feel sad or heart broken, i already don't know why my tears seem to be dried up, and they are not falling down.. Walked around a few block then sat under block 805, chit chat and blah blah blah, until time passed. He walked me to a bus stop, at first thought he will accompany me take bus back to woodlands interchange since i'm not familiar with the place.. But he didn't, he was about to say bye-bye, and I kicked up a fuss and walked off..

Feeling of being cheated

2010-05-27T01:34:00.005+08:00

I feel cheated by what he had done.. After missing him for two days, and this is all i get back..
Jie told me quite a lot of stuff... Regarding that adding vodka to fizzy drinks, you will still be able to smell the alcohol and taste the alcoholic sensation.. Well and she brought up that time when i drank alcoholic drink.
Baby i really wanted to trust you, but how is it possible that at first drink you didn't notice that the drink was so different? And when you feel high, why can't you control your mind and stop drinking... What if the incident wasn't drinking and is sexual? Are you going to tell me that, "I feel high, and she continue seducing me that's why that kinda thing happen?" *Sighx..* I juz can't bring myself to hate you, leave you neither could i bring myself to say I hate You... Whatever you do, no matter what jie said about how you are lying to me, i still trusted you.. I don't know, but somehow there's a feeling that you're not lying about this matter. I trust you baby. Even if the trust is now broken, i believe as time pass, we will be able to build back the trust again(:
I really don't like people who drink.. After drinking they juz seems so restless the next day.. I don't know if you know that the feeling that i fear most is loneliness anot, but i juz hope you understand.. Whenever you feel restless you juz keep sleeping and end up you got no time for me, and thus treated me coldly... It breaks my heart when that happens.. Drinking isn't good for your health either... I don't want anything that's bad to happen to you.. You're my dearest, the one that i rely on for everything, can you imagine if you are gone out of a sudden how am I gonna go on? You promised me you will be there for me, and vice versa i promised you that i will be there for you, so please (that it as i'm begging you) take good care of yourself, don't let anything happen to you.
Today was really tiring, after taking care of the elderly for the whole day and helping Mrs Poon out with the serving of food plus finding people to help serve the elderly.. Exhausted, but it aids me to understand the elderly more.. Looking at them, it somehow makes me wonder.. Am i looking into my future? When i turn old, will i become liddat? Pitiful, lonely and need people to look after? Where will my hubby be then? A lot of questions surfaced in my mind, I can say, i fear aging..
There's one thing that jie mention also, and it makes me think really deep into it.. And that is, why baby don't want change his fb status :/ is it cuz he don't want someone to see it? Or he don't want people to know that he is dating? I'm envy of alicia, at least her boyf bother and is eager to change his fb status to "In a relationship with Alicia Ang" haish... guess this will never happen between me and him huh..? Striking out fb status, the next thing is couple ring, seems impossible either *strike it out too* and the next... argh, hate thinking about all these lahx, i juz feel that he don't understand me enough... Hope hope, wish wish that baby will understand me more :$

2009-07-08T22:05:00.002+08:00

Another let go... It seems to you like letting me go is easy...

then why are you crying?

Why are you falling sick?

Why are you avoiding me?

Why don't wanna drag on?

You admitted everything yourself.. that, you don't want to soften your heart towards chasing me off...

Why can't you just believe that i will never regret being with you?

Why do you only want me when you life is at the best and get rid of me when your life's at the worst... You are silly do you know that? Wilson teoh, you get the fact wrong.. utterly wrong... Love is not being with the person when his life is at the best but with that person through thicks and thins, no matter what always staying by his side...

"Retrenchment" such a big word i hadn't use since i left primary...

Your dad might be getting it isn't it?

You said maybe, then why are you so sad now?

Why don't you dare to gamble our love and future with it?

Is me that you don't trust or is it yourself..or... even ur dad?

Why did i fall in love with you, the eldest son of your family? why u?

If is your di, will everything be different? If is another guy, will things be better?

You said you regret knowing me, you regret stepping into my life and brought tears to me...

I don't mind shedding those deep-from-the-heart's tears, i don't mind wake up every night between 3am-4am thinking, missing, wanting you... I said I won't regret, but you never believed me... you are afraid i will hate you in the end... "I don't want a relationship anymore, forever." that's what you said... but did you forgot what you promised? 你答应我的是一辈子，是未来，是爱情... i really wish Fate can stop playing games with us, i really prayed that your dad will be alright.. really..

xQuote for Himx

Being your best friend for the time being

is the one way i can think of to stay by your side,

to care for you T-T

Clearing dust again ><;

2009-06-17T23:42:00.004+08:00

O.o opps.... i broke my promise again haish.....sorry I didn't update that often as i say i will D: so sorry manzxc... Well, will be going for tommorow's ndp training (which obviously, i don't feel like going -.-) i'm really sick and bored of it and i seriously don't want to take part any more after hearing that we must be hyper, smile and laughing all the way...

I don't know what is it like for others.. but when my mood is low, when everything is crashing down for me, and things are going superly wrong i really don't feel like laughing or hyper myself anymore.. i hate faking out those silly smiles on my face, i will look very retarded. Even though is embarassing to be kicked out of ndp group but i really hoped to be kicked out, at least like that i don't have to fake anymore T-T

As my holiday passed by, me this lazy bum is still left with piles of homeworks o.o let's list them out xP
-English
-Maths : left with two activities
-Literature
-Chinese
-History
-Chemistry

D**m o.o!! That's everything ><; alright, i planned to do it on Friday.. so T-T it seems like i got to sacrifise those chatting time with him D: s-a-d-e-d... Anyway, treat it as return him xD he left me alone today for his work also!! *blehx*. With him de relation finally back to the stable state after i rack up a big big fuss over... he remember when he broke with that girl and hmm, he didn't remember when we were together 2years ago, and f**k that was the date he told me D:< he keep apologise, of cuz is not enough, so he made a promise to me(: -- Like you said you have changed, i trust u again that u won't childishly promise and never do.

Hazel nut nut, i update oledi xD, you like very moody hor? don't sad lahx ok? cheer up more^^
When you cried you never know maybe there's someone out there falling in love with your smile(:
erm erm, the following "random quote is for sze hua luhhx after reading one of her post

xRandom Quotex

Watching you going steady with a new girl, i know i won't be able to hold your hands again,

to tell you how much i love you,

i don't wish to bless you two,

thus i choose to bless u...

The HAZEL post(;

2009-05-30T00:02:00.004+08:00

Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel Hazel
Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut Nut
Enough of your name le ma? haha xD
Crazy nut<3
Hazel is cheerful.
Hazel is hyper.
Hazel is playful.
Hazel is kuku.
Hazel is crazy.
Hazel is everything except emo and saddish.

Today went to meet the parents session with jie, Ms murty say i spent too much time on my computer that cause my grades to be only this standard... But lucky none of my family members have decide to cut down/limit the time i can use my computer, my sis just tell me that she don't wish to see me working hard at the last minute again ><; After that took cab to raffles cuz jie need to return things to the HR and get their pay slip, then we shopped around, saw a shop ccall InQbox, the things in that shop all so special~~ Continue to shop, me and yee huan each bought a shirt, it's so cute lor!!! Then took MRT and went to fetch mummy off work, lunch at long john, then me and jie went to catch a movie with her friends, watched--- NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM 2!! It's so funny uhx!!!!must watch ok? After the movie should have gone to drink abit of beer with jie de laopo but she was held up by some personal matter so in the end we didn't go aww.. Well so here i'm blogging ;D

--Not going to blog about him today.. maybe in tomorrow's post(;--
Okies~~ bb my faithful readers, esp Hazel nuttie~~ hur hur!

Hazel(: : Enough of your name in this post le ma? haha~~

Even i have to give up everything for loving you i think is worth...

Lie, lies and million lies...

2009-05-28T21:08:00.005+08:00

"Girl are just like pineapple,

boy often don't reach the heart and never know it is sour.

Boy are just like onion,

girls peel layer by layer with tears,

but in the end, they realise onion have no heart..."

Time for some update(:

A lot of things happened, and i know i could never go back to the past..

to treat choir with the same attitude again is impossible now.

Camy, i really appreciate you telling me the truth about what mrs poon say, i never wished this friendship to end either, but, since the time you told me the truth and that choir practise start, i know there's no way i could turn back to the old me and pretend nothing of those sorts had happened... Is not that i hate you or avoiding you, but i really need some space to cool down and think about this..well... incident(?).

Today oral was freaking nervous ><; The teacher in-charge of picture discussion asked me twice if i want to add on, and i dumb dumb reply her say i don't want D: I saw my marks waving goodbye to me T-T

Baby, i really don't hope you are lying to your own feelings, I thought by now we both should understand no matter what kind of love it is, whether it's puppy love, first love or even true love they all hurt? Your uncertain towards this patch back we both can see and feel, no point trying to hide.. in fact i'm scared too, who knows how long this time it will last again? But i'm willing to gamble this round ^-^ I admit last time when we were together at the beggining i really got no feel for you, i just treat you like well, i love you cuz i need you but now it change i need you cuz i love you(; I really don't know who to show my weak side to, who's from my friends will be the one telling me that everything's gonna be alright, who's there to hear all those things i wanna let out of my heart ><;

Alrite this next paragraph is for sze hua, jux hope it works xD

Well, girl, you are facing puppy love now, and it often hurts and the person you fall for will always change, just like you say you fall for those guys that treat you really well, don't think that yourself are such a flirt or whatsoever, puppy love is liddat de and is natural for our age(: But don't stead for eagerness ok, when the feeling is really right then you go for that guy, cuz none of your friends will wish to see you coming back with wounds in your heart, these wounds will never heal de.. It's better to find someone that love you more than you love him, cuz this way he will treasure you more, and that time, you will truly be blessed^^ Jux to tell you~ feel free to find me when you are facing such problems bahx, i don't mind pointing out paths for you to walk :D && don't often be so sad, cheer up more cuz you don't know there might be people out there falling in love with you smile and cheerfulness ~.^

End here end here~~ i'm turning black due to ndp training xD

sze hua : thx uh~~ you say de ah muz lend me your shoulder when i cry uh :P

Hazel(: : haha~ okok ^-^ hope you findyour true lurbbbb too ;D

Cammie! : okies.

sze hua : i will start up dating daily de(;

Hazel(: : YES MADAM! xP

Back to that pure pure love hao ma?

2009-05-12T22:32:00.002+08:00

woo~ officially private my blog :D
Invited readers feel honoured please xD
Well, i private it is because i want to shout out all my feelings...
it is really hard and painful to keep it in my heart.
Fyi, pisces tends to imagine a lot...
baby, i really hope you understand that i care from my heart...
my heart breaks when i saw you coming back to me hurted so deep,
she found another guy, i know you definately cried,
even though now you tell me you got over it le.
You've changed, it's what you told me when we get back together.
It's my fault in the first place i don't blame u ><"
You're the one that can stand my unreasonable and stubborn character.
The one that almost kill urself due to my stubborness...
i'm sorry T-T
Turned bad because of me...
i rmb that time i wanted you to buy me something,
but you don't have that much money,
so you went to work during your holidays...
and i'm so bored that you are always busy i make you skip ur work,
tell lies to ur boss say you're ill ><;
you did it, cuz you promised to do anything for my sake no matter what the consequences will be...
ur mummy ask you go visit ur grandma, but i throw my temper & u stayed.
for me, you really did a lot,
you hide things that you know i will cry over to protect me,
we broke off two times rmb? due to my stubborness agn...
If we din break off at all, it will be 2year+ since we are tgt le...
You told me about that friend of yours who you did project with,
you got horny over her, you said it very truthful to me,
i really don't know i should be happy or jealous... or both?
happy that you willing to tell me the truth, jealous about that...
It's normal for boy i know, cox well, she striped in front of you what else can i say..? not naked
we really went through a lot to be together -- to get scolded, you went near death, crying at nights
that time i went mia suddenly you even cried for 3nights and asking raylyn jie to help find me...
& that time we broke off, and you with emily, i woke up in the middle of 4am and cry..
raylyn jie know we back together le, she's worry that i will fall lagi deep again...
i believe you this once ok? you will still protect me like in the past though you won't miss me that bad, at least i know you are braver now(:
i believe you will keep your promise this time ok?
i regret not treasuring you when i have you back then, now fate give me another chance, i make sure i treasure it. Is a promise i give for this chance.
i don't know who will bother about all these stuff that i just need to get rid from my heart, who will be there to bother and console me when i need a shoulder to cry on, so.. i resort to private my blog to certain readers and type it all out.
i really miss u, why can't fate allow us to spend more time together?
you say you are doing well ask me don't worry.
hope you meant what you said(:
baby, you are really very caring and gentle, whenever i cry you console me, when i'm afraid of something you will tell me "don't be afraid i will be there for you."
i wonder if you will still be scribbling on your books during lessons, which you once said you will, and that you are repeatedly writing my name, no wonder we are both pisces ~.^
Even though we are together now, but i prefer last time together de feeling ;)

Hoooooo, saying it all out, felt much better le ><;
so hard to keep in heart D:

2009-05-11T12:37:00.003+08:00

Oh... damn, really don't feel like finish editing this blog ><"
But i missed blogging O,O hur~
Well, basically i'm here to say that i will private this blog for a short period of time,
only a few will be able to access it(:
So, if you can't read it, don't ask me why, smart enough, guess the answer then :)

The End, buaix buaix~

My wonderful birthday~

2009-02-24T23:07:00.009+08:00

First of all, thanks all my friends that wished me happy birthday :D

Mummy♥♥♥♥♥

Beloved jie ♥♥♥

Raylyn jie♥♥

Pika yeye♥♥

Wilson♥♥

Lipeng♥

Alicia♥

Hazel♥

Sze hua♥

Jin Wen♥

Tenisha♥

Atiqah♥

Crystal♥

YunLin♥

Anna♥

Shuyi♥

Meiching♥

QingQing♥

Camy♥

YuLing♥

That's all i can remember ><; sorry if i miss out any of your names D:
*The above names are not in any orders,

1 heart = friends/good friends/close friends.

2hearts = Precious

3-5 hearts = Beloved.*

Lipeng and alicia surprised me with the BIG present this morning :D

and they make hazel sing for me happy birthday song haha

The present when it's still in the plastic bag :PTADA~ Taken out ^^
The bottle of capsule,written by alicia :D

It says Happy Capsule Letter ^^The instruction created by alicia :)

The sweet sweet Meiching gave me :D

The card written by lipeng :D

Putting all together :B

*OPEN!* Look inside :D

Take out all the five items (:

Open up the cardboard box is this photo frame with "love"

Zoom in view of it :P

The LOVE CUP ^^

Note book o.o?

The focus should be the big book de :D

Last but not least, the angbao from John(2nd sis bf)

Haha that's all the pictures i have to share {: and and!! read on!
3 sweeties sang me happy birthday song :D
4 evil peepos call me old D:
Thanks for making my birthday such a memorable one ^^ <33

joy : tQ~ yeye♥
JINWEN : LOL! dun remind me that i'm turning old D:

Jie Jie iMu D;

2009-02-16T22:21:00.003+08:00

Jie went to China yesterday morning..
then i yesterday night dreamt of her coming bak ><;
i miss my jie so much :(
come bak with my present hor :P
counting down to 6days and she will be bak ^^

This year's birthday will be so damn BORED...
Why?
-Common Test start on that day...
-Got choir all the way until 6pm++

Haiz... so mummy say celebrate like one or two days earlier :(
The easiest way to remember my birthday is just count 10 days after valentine,
thus i often ask my mum, "mummy why you don't give birth to me 10days earlier?" :P
If not i will be valentine baby le... or like 2 months earlier? and be x'mas eve baby xD
& everytime mummy just say i was mad ><;
Of cox i won't forget to slot in my ultimate wish for this year ^^
Ulimate = canot say xP

Choir will start to have extra practises on Sat,
ZOMG D:
Qing Qing say it's from 10am - 1pm hmm, ok lahh not worse than holiday's schedule."
I will be willing to give out my Sat if it really helps choir's standard to boost and get silver ^-^
but i was disappointed to know that mr goh choosen 清江河 instead of iddem-dem.
Anyway.. it's the instructors' choice, our part is only to sing it well.

I will be taking care of Mao Mao for the rest of the 6days (:
He given me "golden bars" every day -.- and extra more!!!

sze hua : hur hur thx for that belated wish ^^ u dun understand which part?

Testing out the Windows Live Writer

2009-02-08T02:07:00.001+08:00

Back to blog, after the last post of the lyrics for “Wish I was Her”.

Just downloaded the Windows Live Writer, trying it out now ^^

I didn’t went to school on Friday again….. had slight fever ><”

But after some rest and the help of Panodols.

Didn’t go to the doctor, so got to write a letter again –.-||

so troublesome D:

Today woke up, released Mao Mao from his leash, play with him for awhile, fed him,

brushed teeth and washed(myself) tied him back then went for my breakfast :3

Then when i was eating Mao Mao cry, so i was like watch my show and ignored him ><

No choice…. need to wait for jie to wake up then can release him again, cox i scare when i’m eating he will go pee or shit somewhere else…

Later on, Mao Mao barks at my 2nd sister like siao… cox she keep use the hanger to scare him.

Probably he flare up so he barks at her :|

After that, Jie and I went to NTUC and buy food for out following days’ breakfast.

Came back slacked for the whole day {:

End here, tired le :3 tomorrow still need to go out with family.

tataZ

WanTing : Thanks for your concern ^^ i’d recover le (:

Sze Hua : hur hur~ how you get to noe de? o.o did i mention in my blog? :O

2009-02-02T22:39:00.004+08:00

Found this song, probably quite long ago...
It's by amy pearson - Wish i was her.

Amy pearson - Wish I Was Her
Always knew that when we said goodbye,
It wouldn't last forever.
Always thought that I'd run into you,
and we'd get back together.
Now you're here,
just like i imagined,
but never once did it cross my mind,
that you could move on.
You've found someone,
It breaks my heart,
'Cox you're so in love.

[Chorus]
I wish that my touch makes you smile just like that,
And I wish that I had you the way that she has.
Cuz I still remember the love,
I left behind.
Oh, I wish I was her and you were mine.

I think somebody's try'na to talk to me,
but I can't hear what they're saying,
All I can do is stare at you,
I dont even know why I'm staying.
Never thought, I'd cry to see you happy,
Just I thought that your happiness was right here with me.
I know were through,
It's no use,
Still I cant help but feel.

[Chorus]
I wish that my touch makes you smile just like that,
And I wish that I had you the way that she has.
Cuz I still remember the love, I left behind.
Oh, I wish I was her and you were mine.
The way that she has you (oh)
I wish that was me (I wish that was me)
There's no place on earth,
That I'd rather be (rather be)
Cuz I still remember the love,
I left behind.

I used to be right beside you (oh no)
Now I'm not even kept inside your heart (oh no)
I put our love upon a shelf
But now it's gone
Cuz you belong to someone else
.
[Chorus]
I wish that my touch makes you smile just like that (I wish I was her)
And I wish that I had you the way that she has you (the way that she has you babe)
Cuz I still remember the love I left (I Left Oh I Left Behind)
Oh I wish I was her (I wish I was her)
And you were mine (oh I wish you were mine)
Oh I wish that were me (Oh I Wish That Was Me)
There's no place On earthThat I'd rather be (That I'd Rather Be)
Cuz I still remember the love
I left behind
Oh I wish I was her
And you were mine
Oh~

Nice tune and meaningful lyrics though (:

will reply tags on the next post, lazy now :B

2009-01-23T19:15:00.005+08:00

Mao Mao after his grooming (shave botak, cut nails, clean ears and bath?)
When one of the worker lead him out, jie and I could not recognise him at all ><

He turn until so thin and...erm.. odd :X
Alrite, after picking him up, went to buy dinner with jie.
I admit, i laughed all the way :B
Can't help right? His "new" look really very funny :P
This two pic above is after jie trim the fur on his ears again.
At first were two big "bush" very odd that's the reason i laughed.
Hur hur~~ that's all about mao mao's fur.

Jie bought this handphone strap for me ^-^
she also bought one for herself, thus we will be using the same phone,
with the same handphone strap xD
And and~ it's both sides are different, not like some that i seen, both side same.
special hor? (:
While i was chionging for my chinese homework, received xiner's sms,
she was asking if any of the 6Loyalties '07 want a gathering on the 28th.
But sad uh... can't make it for that date, cox will be just back from malaysia.
Missed all my P6's friends damn much D:
1year of never seeing them le.....
hmms.. probably all change alot le ba? :P
hving pizza lata,
cox jie's craving for pizzas hur hur~
she just had it for today's last lesson :3
Leaving singapore for m'sia on 25th.
cny cny, so troublesome, but at least gt angbao take :P
kez end here~

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marmie : hur hur~ tQ ^^

Dorothyyy:D : thx for dahhx tag (:

QiRuo :] : gee~ is ok ^^ come more often can le :B

Fall out of my hand,

out of my heart,

and when u hit the ground,

u will be sorry that i'm not around.

I'll be on the top just watching u fall.

(Taken from Ina - Fall)

2009-01-18T23:14:00.002+08:00

Today went back to Sim Lim Square with jie,
and bought the LG Ice Cream KF350 xD
Jie bought the white one, and i bought the pink one. ^^
So happy uh~~~~
Cant take the pic of my own ice cream, so find pics in photobucket and put it up :P
Called mummy, ask her eaten her lunch le ma, then she say eat le
so jie and i decided to lunch at those near-by restraunts,
mac was packed with people, so is the nasi lemak restraunt,
but the cafe, beside was empty really E-M-P-T-Y
suggested to go in for lunch, since we lazy to wait for seats.
Orders Chicken bacon sausage wrap, french fries, fish and chips and coke.
the food was....... ewwww ><
not nice...
the serve the french fries in one basket,
the bacon thing was way toooooooo salty >:
fish and chips, still ok. not much comment on that.
so eat finish, play with the phone for awhile, then pay and went off.
before we went off, a few peeps came in.
jie and i say, our suffering end le, and they just started theirs :B
hur hur, hope they dun puke after eating, like we were about to :
shop around bugis, looking for jeans and jie looking for tops.
met mummy at watson, decided to shop at bugis street
book the cab to m'sia then head home.
persuade mummy to take cab xD
alrite ends here :3
Nitezxc peepos

smc/meiching : hur hur~ i teach u during tuesday choir ba (: thx for the compliments ^^

You sucks manzxc,

sucks more than a shit!

Kiddy boy -.-

2009-01-18T00:52:00.002+08:00

Love = Lies

Never will it = forever/eternity.

*Just a random quote*

Today woke up at 10+ nearly 11am

then saw the msg terence kor send to wish me good morning :D

Then had breakfast with jie, watching that particular show again (:

Watch till 1pm+ mummy call to ask us if want to go out ma.

So i lazy, went back for a nap but just a short while :P

when woke up, change clothes, then went out.

Took cab to Bugis, while walking to Gordino,

met ShuYi, and Anna (probably.. cox didn't see clearly ><")

Shuyi was a sure thing, cox she called out to me hur hur.

this time got wave back, not like in school didn't reply :B

Went to find mummy, lunch at Mos Burger,

after that went to BHG to shop around.

Bought T-shirts from Surfers' Paradise.

The T-shirts from that particular brand

was damn stylish and nice, the material also very comfortable ^-^

Mentioned about the LG Ice Cream to mummy,

told her, me and jie wants to get one each,

jie wants the white one, whereas i will take the pink one.

Suprisingly, Mummy agreed!!!! :DDDD

but need to trade in my currently phone which is N81 for that.

so yea, agreed.

Even though all those messages will be gone, but nvm.

every new year is a new starting, every new phones is a tools to end memories.

i won't choose to transfer those message, but i will read them for the last time

and then delete them off.

Bye to them, Bye to those memories.

Is 2009, no more day dreams, study hard.

Suddenly felt that Wan Ting really inspire me a lot.

her hard working in studies.

i will skipped the part on choir.......

not a pleasant one..... -.-

Mr Goh went too far this time....

Alright, Ends here.

My dreams end along with 2008.

分手后永远都不会是朋友的定律。

2009-01-14T14:40:00.002+08:00

Erhem! for friends that know me in audition,
-daR-Angelx3 no longer exist alrite? (:
from now on, u can either call me dawnnie or dawn,
but plz! dun call me angel -.-
i'm not related to that piece of sai
for real life frenz~
call my real name wun mind hor~ ^^
hur hur~ okk that's all about audi,
for that piece of sai,
i wish u and her "last long" hor~
well, choir recruitment was fun~
no nid elaborate on that :P
lazy uh :3
choir boring...
know about the standard mr goh wants for syf
so? for sure cant in liao lahh D:
cox i really duno how count beat lor...
today!
woah finally comes to today :X
class test on the first period
i tot i would have die :P
but heng! is damn damn easy ^-^
then had chem
chem was so what ok
mrs ho showed us "magic"
which we all noe is like
some kind of science logic behind it
then ace trick mrs ho
so evil lahh him
mrs ho say don't shake don't touch
then he purposely do all that -.-
basically craps through lessons and lessons
surrounded by those noisy bois,
no choice :P
then history.
i was listening siol
then the cher call my name
say am i alrite
then say i looks busy zzzz
busy de not me lahh!
is hazel siax
ji dan gao ><"
so yep, bak in my home sweet home with plenty of work to do
got to end here thn (:
need to go finish up the homeworks.

You're just a puddle of sai,

wanna stay in my mind?

wait for next life ba!

shitty shit shit

tired,sian,no mood,sad ):

2009-01-09T22:45:00.004+08:00

No mood to blog today ):
Saw something really hurtful (hur hur, of cox i won't say what it is luhhx hor?)
Came back from choir at 6++pm
went back home with camy, on the way saw Junwei.
Duno what to blog about lahh... ._.
Very tired, very sian, totally no mood now
my mind's a blank
nothing came into my mind bout what to blog....
tomorrow will probably reach school at 7am.
performing for the sec1 student.
Nothing to say le....
will blog about today and tomorrow's stuff together,
so yep, bye bye.

Hurtful.

~~damn u~~ T-T

TIRED! HATE MS MURTY!

2009-01-08T22:46:00.004+08:00

yawn~~~ >.~
Tired. Tired.
Today woke up and saw blood stain on the newspaper MaoEr sleeps on... D:<
Then look at the towel he use also have ZOMG...
But mummy say i think too much, maybe is sauce or whatsoever stuff...
To me i don't think so le ><
It really looks like blood stain to me.
So went to brush teeth, take a bath, then ask mummy go wake jie up to see.
Jie say is blood stain, then she check MaoMao's body
to see if there's any blood stain on his fur, but only saw abit on his right back foot.
Drag time drag time, i forgot that 7:20am need reach school ><"
Left home at 7:01am.
Rushed like hell, and the bell rang for gathering in the parade square... -.-
Didn't went up to 3rd floor and put my bag, just went to sit down.
During Quiet Reflection that time, that stupid indian form teacher, Ms Murty,
gave me a lecturing again -.-
because of what?
My fringe -.-!!
Sianzxc.
She was so dumbed-ass can?
We didn't even get our student handbook she can tell me take out...
take shit out for you lahhx!
Probably still in her LaLaLand dreaming -.-
student handbook....i pui!
Nag Nag Nag ask me tie it up.. blah blah blah... noisy menopause old cher...
While she is giving her "speech" specially to me,
i was thinking that, aiya since only see you at the last period, after recess then tie.
Who cares? Other people's form teacher also don't care she cares so much...
E-X-T-R-A-ED
Proceed with the day's lessons,
started off with chinese, Ms Lin was good,
she has a mixture of china and m'sian accent. cool manzxc!
Learn the first chapter, do worksheet, end le.
Geography, then recess.
Fast forward...same old normal days...lessons brighten up by Ace's cold, lame, funny jokes again..
After school, stayed back awhile with alicia,qing qing,sze hua, hazel and jia hui.
alicia stay back clean the classroom,
sze hua and qing qing looking for teacher.
so craps on the way to find teacher.
End of story.
Went back home, on comp, blah blah bleh bleh.
Received sze hua's sms, unhappiness befall on her D;
well her granny just need some time to understand her decision...
so.. except for encouraging words i can't help much also ><"
Cheer up ya~ B
Times getting late, shall end off here.
Bedtime~ storytime? haahaa~!

joy : hur hur~ thx yeye for ur tags~ tc in the niu year~ ^^

STM,

sometimes can be good also,

at least...

no misery (:

Relaxed Day KO-MO-CHI~

2009-01-07T22:14:00.002+08:00

Hoohoo~ Went back to school today, didn't overslept again x:
I saw Camy while on my way to school, heard her calling me,
turned over to look then ignored, cox the way she react when i told her what happen ytd
totally pissed me off D: but afterall she apologized, so nvm then
Reached school, asked about choir,chinese, math, and alicia told me about the class fund..
Paid Ms Murty the class fund's $4 after the diagnostic test.
After that, our geography teacher, Mrs Lim, came.
She's quite friendly, the past school she teached was Pasir Ris Sec wooo~
but remember something wrongly, i mixed up Pasir Ris Crest with this school... ><"
still can recap the coldness in PRCSS' hall.
Heard that choir dance need wear cap O.o
OH NO!!!!!! D:
I DUNWAN!!!!
EEEEE!!!
RAWHHH1!!!
DUNWAN DUNWAN!!!!!
wth -.-
why did Mr Yiong come up with this idea siol?!
I declare quitting :3
Ok, fast forward to after school,
wait for alicia to go toilet,
then craps awhile and starts to walk back home.
Walk up the overhead bridge and remembered what i saw this morning....
there's a middle-aged lady, climbing up from the school side,
while she climbs up, she breaks the branches of the tree
that sticks out... my... she's so evil!
What has the tree done to her that she needs to do all that to it?!
Cruel Old Witch!
Well anyway... enough of the witch, reached home, feed MaoMao choco drop
then changed into home clothes and on my comp.
Chionged my Audition story to 50% and gotten a blue E1 ^^
and from there onwards need to ownself open room to continue the story.. ><
so play play play, till mum reach home, had my lunch then take a shower~
Cooling when the icey cold water rush down my face, so 舒服~
Fallen asleep while listening to iPod,
cox the wind from the fan too comfortable le, so just take a nap (:
woke up, chatted with raylyn jie on msn, then watch tv, had dinner
and now~ am blogging :D
Alright looks like that's all i had to share ^^
time to pack my bag and sleep agn :x so pig uh me ><
Nitezxc and sweet dreamsssssss reader :D

jie haven come home yet....

worry worry D:

i'm gone from ur life...

4mths 26days ago...

The Odd Feeling...

2009-01-06T14:57:00.003+08:00

Really felt damn damn damn odd after all...

Although jie say is good at least, is like i gain a day of "holiday"

but the feeling is really very odd,the first time i didn't go school,

just because i woke up late... the alarm clock didn't ring!

It's already 7.30am when mum wakes me up ><"

Remembering what Mr Zuhri (New DM) said

"People that arrive at school after 7.30am will join the running programme."

wth lah.... -.-
My legs still hurts! THANKS TO THAT TORTISE TAN BAK CHENG!!

And going to school now to run again? No thanks.

So mummy say stay at home, later ask jie write a letter she sign.

Went back to bed, but wide awake, thinking over all the consequences....

Yesterday night still thinking i will surely love today a lot a lot,

as today will have music for the first period, first chinese lesson for 2OO9,

choir practise, but... everything turns out to be the opposite D:

Why like that.... ):

But enough of that... dwell on it also no use le haizxc

Nightmare~ The japanese visual kei (视觉系) band.

They are the band that sing The World (Opening Song for DN 1)

Also the only visual kei band from japan that i like (:

Search on a lot japanese visual kei band, but all those band's song

didn't impress me that much ):

Their The World MV also very nice xD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=seXx6DN5rQc

Paiseh, cox don't know how to put the vid here, so,

if you're interested just visit this url (:

Bought and iPod Nano on the 31st December 2OO8 ^^

Tada~!! Gee~ Spend whole night putting songs into it. :3

Alrite, end here (:

tQ tatty jie and wise for tagging~

Why cant human choose to forget what they dunwan to rmb?

2008-12-25T14:17:00.003+08:00

Merry X'mas Everyone ^^
paiseh lehhx, so long nvr blog ><
i'm lazy, dun forget :P
hmm, i shall blog about me goin out wib jie and cousin(debbie) before x'mas eve~
around afternoon debbie came over with her baby, Lucas.
He's so cute and chubby (:
so waited for debbie to feed lucas, jie put on leash for Mao-er,
the dog jie brought over last saturday.
(Mao-er is a pure breed maltese.)
thus, mao-er wail and wail and wail when jie tied the leash againt the railing,
pity him ><
enuff of the dog, we took cab to sim lim square,
look at the price for the mp3 i want,
while in the mean time look for a pure white keyboard for jie.
then we had our lunch at the food court at the basement,
ordered jap cuisine :D
had jap meal for 3days le ^^
first is sakae set meal, thn a jap restraunt at bugis,now food court (:
duno y, i jz crazy over jap food for that few days :p
after the meal, debbie feed lucas again.
she went to get hot water from the drink seller
and wth? the auntie charge her 40cent for one cup -.-
but the water too hot, so at first debbie wan take the ice from the cup
to put inside the baby de milk bottle,
but the straw was not hard enuff to life up the ice,
thn debbie suddenly shout out “啊！我懂了!"
folo by she dump the whole bottle into the cup of Chrysanthemum
me and jie shout tgt, “黏黏！"
she say nvm lata wash.
but all of us dun have tissue -.-
so debbie say haix, nid buy from that auntie again.
the family at the table beside us, kept looking at us ><
after the feeding, we went to take cab to orchard road,
thn the taxi uncle... u make those throat sound
open the door, and spit -.-
*eee puke puke*
he drop us off quite far from our destination,
cox he say he nid rush off to chg shift.
we walk to far east to look for new year clothes,
thn shop shop till very late.
debbie's husband call and say come meet up wib her
so when he arrived,
me and jie left to prevent ourselves from turning into two big light bulbs.
but at the moment, jie overheard debbie's husband say
he come to fetch lucas onli -.- wth?
me and jie went to order kfc.
the queue was damn long luhh D:
thn finally until us, we order buddy meal,
but the cashier from the other counter
said she taken order first, so she took off wad we order....
so, pissed off, we order Zinger Meal instead
we wanted to take taxi home but the queue was verrrrry long
and most of the cab that turn in was on-call -.-
so we went to take bus.
but all the bus was fully packed...
so we took a bus that was quite empty
to novena and decide to walk bak home,
on the way joke alot,
luckily, we gt a cab home
ate our kfc.
took a bath and watch show from funshion,
thn went to slp.

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joy : haha tQ yeye :D

Dorothy : thx :)

marmie : haha i noe ^^

hazel : ps so long no update ><

Qiruo :] : miss u alot too uhh. i will surely be bak next year :D

sze hua : merry x'mas girl :3

woohoooo

is x'mas again~~!!!

2008-12-02T18:05:00.002+08:00

Went to choir today (:
Mr Goh said that there are problems that need to be solve
so he told us that after lunch there will be audition,
to re-section us...
During lunch, went to Mcdonald
with Camy, Hazel & Sze Hua.
sze hua's sulking, can see that she really dun like auditions D:
so brisk walk back to music room,
and they audition the sec 3 first,
WanTing stay in alto2 woots~~ haha ^^
then sec 2's turn,
YunLin stay in alto2 oso ^^
and is sec 1's turn next,
so scare i can't make it to stay in alto2 lahh D:<
starts off with singing the first part of Little Birds,
and Mr Yiong put me to the stable side,
thn he ask who here from alto,
and only me worx!! ><
he praised me say my voice contribute half to the alto2 section hee so ps :P
then they told us to sing soprano1 part !!!!
hellzxc!! i'm an alto2 how could u expect me to sing sop1!!!
so i tell Mr Yiong i canot make it,
then he say try, but instead Mr Goh let me try the sop2 de *hee~*
and i know i cant, so i din try with my head voice,
i used my chest voice instead ><
such a wrong decision can?!!
Mr Yiong laughed and tell me they not auditioning for tenor ><
aww man! damn ps lahh!
and in the end try with head voice
oso canot reach -.-
Mr Goh say odd that i can sing the first part of Little Birds,
but y not the sop2's part ><"
then he say nvm stay in alto2 *woooooots!!!!*
damn damn happy luhh!!!
but.... sadly qing qing, sze hua and hazel's voice
belongs to the unstable side
so they had to think carefully which side to put them
thus the end result will be the best,
cheer up my frenz~
i had the feeling ur will stay in alto de ^^ ❤❤
when i first joined choir my wish was to go in sop de
but when they audition and put me to alto2
saying i had beautiful alto2 voice,
i decide that i wanna for the rest of my life in choir
i will stay in alto2 (:
since i cant be a high voice
y not be proud of my low voice
and make it stronger & stronger ^^
so now, i safely stay in my alto2,
i'm really damn happy de :D
alrite end of today de post,
TaTa~ ❤

Believe that u can and u will succeed!

Cheer Up my frenz!

Ur can make it de ^^ ❤

2008-11-30T12:00:00.001+08:00

Friday
today was so damn pissed off by tat Superstar Corner de auntie D:<
i asked Hazel to help me order cheese fries,
she actually told the auntie two times le,
but in the end when MeiChing they all come,
she gave it to them instead....
thn when hazel ask her " auntie where is my fren de cheese fries?"
she say "oh sry dun have le"
WTH?!!
bullshit lahh she -.-
so when back to choir full of anger -.-

Yesterday
Had steamboat for dinner ^-^
then jie bring her fren michael here,
haahx, that guy was so funny!!
very nice to bully oso :x
hmm, he oso very helpful (:
wonder izzit her jio-ing my jie ;P
jie see this dun kill me ah ^^
my cousin's newborn baby so cuuuuuttteee~~!!!
chubby chubby de ;D
but keep getting hungry :O
okie, nth to post luu~~

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marmie : ohh ok ps ><

marmie : lols.

sze hua : ya tat big big australia teddy bear :X

marmie : wadever, u say gt thn gt lor cox i din turn bak

to c, and and when did i say i will disown ue siax?

Is actually not that u cant do something,

but is u wan to do it or not.

2008-11-25T00:42:00.002+08:00

Back from the World In Singapore Concert.
So tired ><
The whole concert ends at 10pm...
reached home at around 10:55pm.
finish bath then 11pm++ le
soooo late, tml still got choir at 9.45am T.T
but tink bak, the whole event was quite fun though ^^
we reached the explanade earlier than any other sch,
so we slacked at the Theatre (waiting area) first.
until all the other choir reach le then we went for the 1st runout.
the conductors did amendments for both the songs,
then went for some refreshment (:
went back to threatre and w8 for our turn to go on stage.
so sat thr reading my story book and listening to songs.
read sian liao, borrow score from anna to revise the jap song.
then continue slacking until 7++ go for dinner.
after that chged into our gown.
Sat thr craps with fren.
got one teacher from the america sch
we all hate him alot lahh!
keep scoldiing us,
he own sch de students dun wan care come care bout us -.-
hell him!
so during the refreshment,
cox we eating out the theatre de corridor thr,
so whn he walk pass
i went to sing
"teddy bear teddy bear turn around."
"teddy bear teddy bear touch the ground."
cox he gt a big big round round de tummy make him looks like teddy bear
but of cox if really ask him touch the ground
his tummy will burst :x
then that mad hazel nut!
see those TKSS band de bois walk pass
she keep say so shuai
><" malu lehh...
the passage way to the concert hall was so dark!!!
only a few dim light for us to guide our way to the entrance D:
scary scary~
alrite kindof very tired le *yawn*
tml still gt choir so muz slp liao ):
nitex~

Ending a relationship

isn't as easy as saying

i'm letting go and it will be gone de...

2008-11-22T09:51:00.002+08:00

Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question,make it a total of 19 questions. ( ?? )
Then tag 8 people in your list,list them out at the end of this post.& notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.
Tagged to do this quiz by Sze Hua
o1. What people done that will make you hate her/him most?
Misunderstanding me ):
o2. What is your most favorite thing to do?
Day dreaming? o.0
o3. What kind of news do you read?
Ehh, duno lehhx, as long as interesting then i read lor :P
o4. What is your ultimate wish?
Choir gets a gold in next year SYF central judging ~~
o5. Is there someone in your heart right now?
Nope.
o6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
No!! Will die de :x
o7. Are you afraid of pain?
Yes! Of cox ><
o8. What do you feel like doing right now?
Sleep for another hour again ;D
o9. If there someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Nahhx!
10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
-Mood swings at times.
-Hard-working.
-Obedient.
11. Whats the time now ?
9.42am
12. Do you prefer sweet,sour,spicy or bitter?
Sweet of cox ^-^
13. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
Happy~ Rich but no happy gt money oso no use :3
14. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
The unable-to-make-decision de me..
15. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
Still working hard for money? $_$
16. What is the one thing you love about yourself?
My good memory when remembering notes for songs.
17. Name 6 of your GOOD friends.
Alicia,Lipeng,Jessica,Sze Hua, Nut Nut, QiRuo.
18. Which singing group do you like?
S.H.E
19. ~~I'm tagging~~
Gee, my style~ want do just do bahhx ^^
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2008-11-22T00:40:00.005+08:00

Aren't they pretty?

You must be thinking they are so pretty right?

but mind you, they are 人妖...

dun start eee or say disgusting, hear finish their sad story first.

they are smiling so sweetly aren't they?

but do you know their lifespan is only 35-40 years old?

They look so perfectly girl, because they had been through a real long process

that transform them thoroughly from a boy into a woman.

These "girls" are choosen from 5-6 years old handsome boys

and keep injecting female hormones into their body.

Thus as they grows up, they look perfectly like woman.

and some are even prettier than a real woman.

They can sing, dance and do any things that a girl can do.

but behind all this smiles and laughters are all those sorrows...

You might think why are they so silly to choose this path,

they don't have the choice.

all these "girls" come from poor family.

And due to their poor enviroment,

their parents have no choice but to sell them to these ah gua sch

and let them turn into a woman.

they dun have the adam's apple that all guys have

they have smooth complex like girls.

After make up they look even more attractive.

They must also comsume pills that contains female hormone

to prevent their veins to appear abv the skin

thus their hands will not resemble a man's

If you think this are not worse enough, let's hear about their relationship.

人妖 are a special group of people,

even though their looks are similiar as a girl,

but on their IC it is indicated, male.

They cant accept courting from guys,

and they can't love a girl the way a man can.

they cant form a normal family, and lead a happy life till the end

they jz had to suffer a life of loneliness,

and a life that is supported by pills.

From young, they learn those talents (e.g. singing, dancing, acting)

from those ah gua classes.

their life of talent are short, no matter how talented they are.

The peak of their life is at the age of 18-25.

that is the moment they can earn the most money with their talents

and from the age of 26, they starts to grow old

those female hormones pills starts to take less effect on them

and without those effect, all those male features

will slowly review...

Rough complex, and even their voice turn rough.

no stage will want to employ them for performance any more

cox they at this stage, are neither a man nor woman.

they can only watch themselve slowly turn abnormal

and till the end they leave this world.

From the moment they starts to turn into a woman,

their lifespan has cut off by half!

Man ---> Woman ---> Dead

and is becox of all those female hormones

that they injected into their bodies,

the period when they die,

their internal organs will start to rot,

and slowly rot to the outside....

mayb this is the price they pay for reversing the nature

when you go to Thailand and happen to see them performing

mind you,

they are using their life to perform!

pity them,

and hope they live btter the next life...

2008-11-20T22:48:00.002+08:00

*yawn* so tired ><
tml gt choir until 5pm++ agn D:
learn bird chirping, cat meowing, what's next? o.0 dog's woofing?
explanade full dress rehersal will be this sunday :3
nid wake up early agn ...
wearing that gown for two days? will stink anot?
feel so damn damn bored..
holiday homework also haven start to do -.-
should start planning my rl de work le,
drowning in audition, reality will still come and knock on my door de :o
and the reality is... I STILL HAVE WORKS THAT ARE NOT YET DONE!!! rawhh!!
actually plan to shared wad i had read in a forum,
and make this an interesting post with some chiobus picture
but yep, spoil it agn,
i guess i jz had to make that post another day :
end here le
time to go to bed ^-^
tata~

i'm losing grip

what's happening?

i stray from love,

this is how i feel.

2008-11-15T01:58:00.003+08:00

haha another long long time no update my blog luu~
but i kindof lazy to talk about what happen the past few days :X
my life jz revolves around choir and audi ;)
sort of boring, but no choice...
really gt nothing to do D:
Another day of learning how to talk like bird again -.-
and Mr Goh so evil luh!
Alto 2 so less people, he also don't bother to xfer some over
then still want complain our voice too soft
say me sing wrong note, fantastic kao! so bad!
don't want tio suan again,
so Wan Ting ask me and Yun Ling stand together ><
keep kukukuku and lulululu for that whole long period! roarrrr!!
turning kuku soon -.-
Heard bad comments about the other choirs that sang with us in the explanade...
actually they sang much much much better than us,
even though, i admit they sent out de is all juniors
if we cant even be stronger than their juniors...
then i really wondering choir next year can get Gold mah?...
I agree the other choir also have student not attentive,
but at least they remember their notes and we didn't right....?
At least on the note side, they out win us ><
quite pro le, cox we are actually making use of them
to sing in the correct notes.
TKSS band seems so GRAND siax ><
now find our own sch band so....er.... you noe lah~ :x
okk luhhx, end here ^^
those quiz i promise to do i will do de~
today's choir was; so sucky and sux like hellzxc
instructors keep flare ):

X--Tags Reply--X

Hazel : relink le ^^ i so guai hor? :P

Alicia : your quiz same as sze hua gimme de, so will do in the same post ^^

joy : haha ^^ i lazy mahh *blehx* wish you a nice day too yeye~

sze hua : don't cemment on my long nvr update le ><

marmie: lols? dun gimme tat face siax, hate it most!

jia hui : haahx rare guest, rare guest. halo ;)

jessica : haha our sch choir easy get in de :X linked you le ^^ <3

Turn kuku since today; 14November 2008

2008-11-02T13:16:00.002+08:00

hmm well, my audition can function le~ ^^ is like woah, finally!
now only left with the korea songs part, another headach problem :\
i just finish blog hopping around and headed to choir's blog...
saw a lot people saying choir sucks ):
C'mon our choir sucks or not is like none of your business
if you are just an outsider with nothing else to do.
hope choir next year's SYF get Gold,
at least show those senseless idoit that we are not just a silver choir
**Cox to most only Gold/Gold with Honor choir rocks** -.- IDOITS!

2008-11-01T23:02:00.003+08:00

*sweep sweep sweep, dust dust dust*
Paiiseh... i cant believe i actually didn't update my blog for 10days zomg ><
Alright, sweeping and dusting are done, spiderwebs cleared :P
eh, sorry that i did come around my blog and look at all those tags
just that i lazy to create a post and reply all those tags ><"

well, first thing first.
I came back from Genting
and fall sick D:
skipped one practise for choir
then everything seems so odd ):
Mr Goh & Mr Yiong keep flaring at the choir :
after all, don't dare to miss any practises any more ><
cox will don't know a lot of thing
then when they mention about it
my mind will like have a lack of memories :\
and and~ thanks for those that wish me get well soon ^^ x33
the next big event coming up next for choir will be the WISC
(World In Singapore Concert)
got into the first round of selection ^^ so happy luhh~~
erm, end here? o.0
10days and my this post seems kinda short :x
ohh~ the audition's new version's patch really killing me D:
keep have error occur!
though a lot tell me go download the link from www.audition.com can le
but i download liao still got problems siax ):
so todays the 3rd day that i still can't patch it T.T
\(-_-)/ SURRENDER!!
then when i given up and went to look at one of my audition fam de allies
i saw someone tagged their blog and posted a link on how to patch!!damn happy like see hope siax!
so followed the link and went into the forums
and a guy call Quixx
post a full link for 6051->6056!!!
yes yes!! that's what i was looking for!!! ^~^
happy happy~~
but until now the thing still downloading....
99%..1 more percent niax... JIAYOUS D:<
ok luhhx end here ^^
buai buaix

marmie : haha love ya too ^^

sze hua : lols yaya~~ i say alot good fren mahhx jz neh say name ^^

Hazel : dong ur head :X kai wan xiao de ^^

Dorothy : (: thx for ur taqqs paiiseh neh c my blog very long luhhx

marmie : haha at least Jentend can impress those kiddy right?

jiejie : i wan chimpanzee buy me one? :P

Alicia : updating in progress :D

people say woman in love turns stupid

but i say they are turning mature too ^^

2008-10-22T20:42:00.002+08:00

ZOMG!!! My sec 1's life is ending?!
one year pass so fast siax ><"
but gt good oso gt bad lahh
Good ~~> next year gt juniors to bully :x, no longer the youngest in the sch.
Bad ~~> Work gonna be harder D:
tml goin to meet camy at the traffic light thr at 7.20am
thn walk a big big round reach sch :3
hee~ getting bak my report book :D
wanna c wad ms murty write about me :P
and yea,
she say all 1e1 promote to 2e1!!!!! WOOTS!~!!!!~~!!
so happy lahh~~!!
hope can all 2e1 promote to 3e1 :P greedy me ^^
after friday de choir i'm goin to genting zomg! will miss sg :p
even though is holiday
but choir prac still as usual
and even nid to dance the lu guang and high sch musical agn *frown*
i tot tat all tis will hab stop but now it starts agn -.-
will anyway currently tinking a new way to reply tags
so yea all the recent tags will not be replied :x
sry for the inconvinient brought to ue :P

if i still looks the same on the ooutside,

would ue ever notice tat i had actually changed?

2008-10-20T22:20:00.002+08:00

Quiz by Sze Hua

1.What's the first thing u think, when u wake up?

-.- So fast morning liao ah? D:

2.Who's your favourite anime character?

Chobits even though the anime quite long ago but i still love it (:

3.Who's your best friend(s)?

o.o no best frenz, but good frenz alot :}

4.Where do u stay?

--CONFIDENTIAL-- :P

5.Who's your favourite bands?

S.H.E and DK(Danity Kane)

6.What's your favourite songs currently?

Cause i believe, pictures of you, leave out all the rest, hurt so bad, hasta la vista, if you love me, 天亮了，店小二，安静了，我是superman.

7.Who's the person u like most in class?

Er..Lipeng :D she is those rare rare de kind ppl >.^

8.Who's the person u dislike the most in class?

Dunwan say ;\ say sure die very fast? :O

9.What's your CCA?

Choir

10.Who's your best friend in your CCA?

><" say liao no best fren lor D: good fren gt lahhl, alicia and camy, whn all pangseh me they will be thr for me, help me settle my cca probs oso <3

11.Who's your favourite singers?

Angela Zhang she gt a very special voice

12.Which song u like best sung by him/her?

梦里花

13:What games do u play?

Games from webs ~> Viwawa,addictinggame, ferryhalims

Online Game(mass players) ~> AuditionSea

14.Who's the person u respect most in class?

Respect? i giv no respect to ppl same age as me or younger than me :3

15.Why do u respect her?

zzz say liao no respect anyone lor -.-

16.Who's the person u think can be singer in future?

Eh... i not expert or wad so if really ask me all i can say is duno ^^ let the time decides bahh :P

17.Why do u think that /she can do it?

Got potential sure can lor :3 say liao as time goes we can c who ^^

18.Who's your trustworthy friend(s)?

Trustworthy? after tis one year i still trusted no one.... ):

19.Who's the friend who lied to u and u still consider in as friend?

*frown* no one bahhx cox all kind hearted? :P

20.Who's the most cute person in class?

Rong Quan? small small cute cute, but like wad sze hua says onli whn he shuddup :X

21.Which of the opposite sex do u think is always acting cute?

LOL!! bois act cute sure damn funny lahh~!! but our class dun hab D:

22.What do u think u are best at in class?

nth!! (^_^)V

23.Do u think the person in question 19 consider u as friend?

No one in Q19 worx, even hab mai consider thn mai lor, tired of friendship tis stuff -.- too complicated

24.What's your favourite anime show?

very seldom watch lahh... but the best i seen is Chobits bahhx

25.Who u love in class other than urself?

love all my good fren ~.^

26.SABO QUEEN

yer... lazy sabo :x those pass by wan do thn do lor not stopping ue >.^

Hate the game of frenship and life

always so complicated,

so hard to noe if ue r winning or losing ):

2008-10-11T01:05:00.002+08:00

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Hazel : haha npnp ;D anywayz i forgt wad i tagged :X

JINWEN. : yalor! damn pissed by his attitude de!

marmie : hahax

sze hua : l0lx sure lahh :B i gt stm so dun blame me hor ^^

marmie : o.o wad no?

Ken : haahx u're welcome ^^

Hazel : KUKU NUT!!!!!! ahahx~

sze hua : wad finally D: ue w8 very long mehx -.-

Hazel : now updating lor :P ue noe i lazy de :X
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haahx, finally i came to update :P

blog has been rotting for...6 or 7 days ZOMG! i so lazy lahh

ehh... a bit late but still... YIPEEE~~~ EOY FINISH LUHH~~~~!!

no nid c tat ak any more :X

she so irritating lahh D:

tat day even aishah tot the dustbin was supposed to be taken by me ):

all her fault ask me tak till ppl tink i take charge of dustbin -.-

ppl tat call me in msn if i late reply dun blame me ah :\

watching Hot Shot, so nice luhh the show ^^

funny. lauff till du zi tong :D

sad news T-T

holidays still nid go bak for choir D:

shldn't hab say i wanna go the wad World Youth Choral Festival thingy de -.-

go and there goes my dec holiday too *booohoos*

ytd was so suay oso ....

c tat idoit walking in front of me

tat gutless no gugu person D:<

see him can suay very long :3

my art mayb screwed up luhh T-T

my body jz dun hab any cells tat is artistic enuff to help me get a pass ):

so yep, leave it to fate to decide bahhx

to pass me or not :>

end here luhhx

buaiix buaiix~~

就算是believe　中间也藏了一个lie

2008-10-04T23:59:00.002+08:00

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JINWEN. : wakaka! thx for agreeing with me, he's really gt attitude prob D:<

marmie : LOL! so "nice" rite~~ tat idoit locked up his blog siax gutless freak!

sze hua : yalor! c how much he irritates me i can write so much :X

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Ohh GOD!!

tat gutless freak actually locked up his blog

pathetic boi ):

i tot he is so pro as in search out the IP add of a person

and send the person to police siax

in the end

end up resorting to locked up his blog D:

pity him lahh

so kelian lor hor?

here's a question i feel like asking him

"If you have the guts to scold Camy despicable, assh0le and dead, why don't you even have that small little guts to keep your blog UNLOCKED?"

timid thn dun go around scold ppl lahh

shame on ue!

oh well gonna stop toking bout tis super urber cyber idoit

i jz started out with my art preparation mindmap today :x

i so lazy rite ><

bo bian i seriously duno wad to do

even though alrdy gt the plan in my mind

but sure will turn out super dooper ugly de ):

alrite end here luhh~

tml probably wun on bahhx

cox nid to finish up the rt before next thurs ahhhh!!!

somehow... iHu art exam D:<

buaiizxc all lovely reader ^^

tag or not

though i soounds fierce in my post~

i am super friendly :D

Disclaim :

HATE

LARRY!!

ue sux man!!

2008-10-03T22:54:00.004+08:00

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Hazel : haahx tqtq (: ue too yea~ :D
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alrite,

i am here to dedicate a post to a well very zilian person

Larry.

I noe tat tis guy dun even noe me at all

but in a few minutes,

i knew thoroughly tat....

his attitude will sure bring him NOWHERE.

ok, here's how all the things goes.

This kuku boi out of the blue scolded camy assh0le and stuff

and i went over to his blog,

kindly using proper english which i usually wun do for tagging

to ask him dun scold ppl tat way

cox camy did nth wrg

but he deleted my tags

thn went over to sohwynn's blog

and ask him whether he noes me

plus he told him tat i tagged rubbish!

pls dun twist the facts,

i onli asked ue to dun insult ppl jz the way ue wan to

cox is damn irritating

ue wanna hand me over to the police?

do it for all i care!

i din break the rules yea,

and ue said wad?

ur grandfather is changi prison superintendent? LMAO

i bet he is a prisoner more than a superintendent ba? (:

for all i noe the belows are all my impression of ue ;

`No Guts

`Like to twist the facts

`Spoilt brat

`Zilian kuang

do ue noe y i say tis idoit boi zilian?

he actually post in his blog tat

he saw a bunch of sec4 smoking

and whn they saw him

they actually kept the cigarette

and the reason for tat is

he thinks tat he himself looks fierce

and they are scared of him

PLS LAH

go buy a 1.4m tall mirror

tat can let ue c urself frm head to toe

ue r so S-H-O-R-T

and onli tat chubby face

hu would be scare of a childish look boi

like ue?

dun post and make urself be a lauffing stock

cox is damn funny

do ue noe hu ur action resemble?

CHRIS CROCKER

the person tat had his video post in Youtube

defencing britney spear

and he became everyone's lauffing stock

if ue duno hu tat person

feel free to go to http://www.youtube.com/

and search for "Leave Britney Spears alone"

lastly,

get the facts clear!

getting one's IP address isn't as simple as kiddy brain like ue tink it is

did ue ever notice tat the IP address of a same person differs?

ue din rite?

cox all ue noe is

"I will ban u and hand u over to the police"

oh f**king god!

pls lahh!

cau ah gua

i giv ue face nvr scold ue in ur tagbox

and ue can actually so brainlessly

say tat my name is a boi name

thn urs leh?

do ue noe is a parrot's name?

larry the sissy so nice siax!!

i curse ue forever cant get a girlfriend

even if ue gt

ue will jz get damn pissed off by her

and she will tak off all ur money

and thn run off with another guy

cox u're not worth for her to stay with

u're jz a boi without any guts in ur body

plus ue dun even haf any organs or cells

in ur body to help ue tink

BRAINLESS CYBER IDOIT!!

pissed off!!

so hard to cool down siax

stupid idoit!

long time neh c boi so zilian liao!!

cyber idoit!

F.OFF

2008-10-02T21:25:00.002+08:00

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joy : wow~! now thn i noe ue a conductor :x haahx gratzxc gratzxc continue up with ur good work ^^ i dun feel like joining cox i scare i dun haf the will to carry on ):

cherie : is ok... i din put any blame on ue either :\

marmie : haha ^^ *take over the parcel* and.....ILU too!!! :D

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tat stupid ak!!

chou ak!! D:

today ask me take the dustbin go collect used paper agn -.-

y always me ah?!!

my index number so nice to call izzit? D:<

so bored by ak

lucky today she not the second paper's invigilator :3

if not i gt to stay bak and sweep the classroom -.-

kies goin to study for history

buaiix (:

no tag nvm

cox really need to study whn after exam i post agn thn ur tag bah :P

i like so bossy hor? :\

2008-10-01T22:02:00.002+08:00

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marmie : ur sweet sweet tag is received :D

Hazel : npnp u're welcome :)

cherie : i din say ue did it on purpose oso....so dun anyhow tag.

Hazel : lol... dun be so silly lahh... since he can say those things isn't it very obvious le?

JINWEN. : no prob {: haahx is rare yea but i lazy niax :X

Hazel : :O dun cry lahh ): cheer up kays? let go of wad shld be let go of :}

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woah... 2days neh post? o.o
so all the tags are replied ^^
recently nothing to post lehhx -.-
busy with exam turn out my post all so short D:
nth fun will happen during the exam time :X
gt to start doin my art preparation luhhx ):
alrite is a really damn short post...
end here luhh~
buaiix all ^^

ehh...

dun expect me to reply tags now

cox mayb wun post

or wun on comp bahh ):

so yea

wun force ur to tag :P

2008-09-29T22:18:00.002+08:00

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Hazel : haha okok onli lahh ;P

cherie : er, ya tio scold by her... my eng was okok.

sze hua : l0lx...... yea lor ): thx ue too ^^ all dahhx best for your eoy~~
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*waahhhhhh*

sad sad sad!!

stress stress stress D:

i will not be using the comp so often liao ):

after exam thn active bak ^^

sooo stressful D:

still so many days of exam ):

i haven even start doing my art ):<

will i be killed for tat? O:

btw here's for hazel {:

cheer up cheer up yea~

everything will eventually pass de (:

wadever's meant to be let it be bahhx ^^

all the best to all of my frenz in their exams :D

P.S!!!

Anyone can save me? i duno to go the choir thing or not ):

is like.... half of me wanna go half dunwan ):

how?!!!

is such a rare apportunity,

but i dun tink i haf the mood for anymore practise liaox ):

i scare i dun haf the perserverance to carry on attending the trainings

but in another way dunwan to disappoint mrs poon too D:

can anyone help me choose?

vexed vexed vexed :\

hey yea!

ue read wad i post

so guess wad's next before ue close up my blog?

duno?

T-A-G la :P

alrite rmb to help me choose

shld i go the choir thing or not ):

2008-09-27T21:00:00.004+08:00

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JIN WEN. : l0lx thx ehh~~ okok lahh at least compare to CA2 de is easier lor (:

KEN : ok sure ^^ i will add ue asap ^^

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today another day of staying at home and slack

jie ask me tml go bugis with her :3

nth to post liao lehhx...

kies lahh end here

buaiix ^^

为了你

失去你

狠心扮演伤害你

为了你

离开你

永远不分的离去

2008-09-26T22:00:00.006+08:00

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sze hua : haahx.... i don't believe anything last forever de, jz gib me sometimes to sort out my mind bahhx {: but still hope ur wish come true.

Hazel : nvm luhhx.... no point blaming ue, later ue tot i petty :B

marmie : l0lx, cant dun tink lahh, same like i say to sze hua, nth last forever (:

JIN WEN. : LOL, thx hor lzb!! visit my blog nehh link me D:<

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lol, ytd mood suddenly v.low ):

giv me some times bahh,

i will be ok de (:

thks to all those tat tag to care,

i appreciate it alot {:

ytd lesson okok lor,

pass by the same like any other days

but D&T was damn fun luhhx!!

gt the BvG quiz

start of game ace keep disturbing hazel

thn mr dave say if ace kacau hazel agn( of cox he say in proper eng :P)

he will minus 5 marks from the bois' side

LOL start of game they alrdy -5

The first question they ans wrg

thn mr dave go minus another 5marks LOL dammit funny lahh!!

cox wrong no nid to minus marks mahhx

thn mr dave go minus turn to -10 lmao!!

the bois also like nvr notice it >:D

crapz crapz, end liao

gurl won~~ woots~ heng we nvr break the record to be first losing gurl team :B

Mr dave call us to choose a forfeit

thn we tell him we wan the bois to go outside home econ room requested by lipeng they all

hug each other and dance :D evil evil~~

but mr dave dun allow D:

he say dun disturb their lesson :(

thn i go say him scared of AK :X

so in the end ask them do ballroom dance

LOL!!!

ur shld hab seen how yong liang and ace dance

they so funny~~!!!

while the dance hor

they evil lahh

point middle finger D:<

thn rong quan was grabbing bryan/bryce (din c properly) so tightly haahx!

they will oso out of nth all turn and stick tgt lolx~~

unknowingly the bois all stick into one grp luhhx

after all those lauff D&T end liao ):

go home econ wait for pei wen they all

for the history notes.

thn chat chat with lipeng, crystal, thn go home luhh.

at 6++ went out with mummy go suntec shopping ^^

bought alot of things lahh >:D

bought lipeng's bday present oso :D

and my greatest thing is i jz gt my mum to buy me a new wallet and pencilcase ^^

muahahah~~

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today eng exam D:

Mr Tan garantee us tat it will be v.easy

in fact it is quite {:

but today rain so heavily ):

alot ppl oso drenched ):

and i turn into 101 dalmation -.-

my skirt will being splattered by the rain until so "spotty"

thn w8 in class.

tat toopid AK47 is out invigilator -.-

very tired,

almost dozed off alot of time during the paper

so i eat Clorets to keep my mind clear

strangely hor,

during paper 1 i eat

tat stupid idoit AK din scold lehhx

but hor after reccess tat paper 2

i eat she scold me siax D:<

i so tired lor T-T

i cant even concentrate

keep like dozing off

and so call start to dream le... ):

if i ate the clorets thn i wun be like tat le

damn tat stupid ak

curse her if anyth happen to my summary D:<

stupid idoit

eat sweet like is her prob?

she so busybody lahh

our class dirty oso wan care

the table not straight oso wan kik up a great fuss about it -.-

she must be in the stage of menopause

so irritating!!

she summore push my pencil box

jz to squeeeeeeze in to move the dustpan and broom zzz!!

i can conclude i hate her!!!

first ever teacher i hate in BSS D:<

stupid stupid stupid!!! D:

thn after paper 2 walk bak with eunice

was scolding AK old witch,

she was behind us

duno she gt hear anot

the best is she heard lahh

thn she noe how much ppl hate her!

do finish paper check liao wan slp oso canot lehhx

she tell us later she will kena scold if we fall aslp

so i eat sweet to prevent myself from falling aslp lahh

ue stop me siax

menopause de old witch

retire lahh

so old liao.

kies end here

buaiix~~

thx for all the care (:

i will be ok de

jz nid time to sort things out

and lastly

H-A-T-E

A-K-4-7!!

2008-09-25T22:56:00.003+08:00

haix... no mood to blog now :\ totally sianx, though it shld hab been a happy day
but somehow i jz cant cheer up now D:
will blog tml luhhxc,
so bye for now... ):
btw, to all my frenz
if i am shunning ue for now
i'm sry
i jz nid sometimes to sort out my mind
of who's truly my frenz and who's not ):

let me be back the one i truly am can?

i am really terribly tired now....

2008-09-24T20:00:00.006+08:00

♥--Tags reply--♥

Hazel : l0lx....np lahh, they deserves it!

marmie : so difficult lor the question ): but i gt 36/40 ^^

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Alright. Did not post anythig yesterday, too lazy.

Let's start talking about yesterday then come into today's events ba :)

Yesterday during P.E

Me,Crystal,LiPeng,Eunice,Hazel,SzeHua,QingQing and alicia team up and play captain's ball against

Aishah,Karen,PeiWen,Shermaine,Atiqah,JinWen,FangChen's team

Is so damn funny lor :D

all hyper hyper thn crack up alot ^^

thn gt one time hazel threw the ball at me

whn i wasn't payin attendtion at who's holding on to the ball :\

hit onto my shoulder! argh so painful T-T

thn blah blah alot other fun things lahh >:D

thn tat day suwen's turn to fall into the puddle of water -.-

walao, tat puddle of water so dangerous lor!!

keep make ppl fall de -.-

thn during assembly

so fun luhh~~

gt ppl singing music a cappella

thn their last music they ask who in choir or band raise ur hand,

lol thn nobody dare admit >:D

thn somebody i hate went up stage -.-

like sze hua say BAI MEI lahh make me wanna puke..

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today~~!!!

sci same old boring lesson :X

thn literature,

we tot will be boring oso

thn in the end bvg quiz

damn damn funny oso >:D

crystal rush to giv ms murty the ans keep knock into rong quan LOL

gt one time she run thn kik tio jun wei's bag haahx!!

thn blah blah...

the bois win luhh.... D:

listen to a few songs by west life thn go to reccess

eat eat chat chat thn keep make fun of hazel :3

thn she drink water the water pass by her mouth and dripped onto my bag D:<

screamed damn loud ><"

thn crystal write LC ♥ LP

thn lipeng was chasing her like mad LOL

while they were running accidentally kik on jun wei's bag agn

l0lx i really lauff alot today >:D *evil*

thn chinese do filling all tat

dismiss thn go home luhhx

today really damn fun lahh ^^

But gt one thing i seriously don't get it ):

Why at the end of sch Sze Hua turned so emo

i just want to ask her what happened

but hazel silenced me....

Yep, i was totally blurred

mayb she jz nid ur care and not mine

shld i jz shun ur?

cox i dun tink we seems like frenz

though ur might say we are ):

Hazel i told ue b4 i read ur blog oftenly

and yep wad i read

wad comes into my mind

i wun tell ue

i jz tag and tat's it

dun ask me anything

if ue really wanna noe

i can onli tell ue,

tat's my style, when i'm really tired of somethings...

Ok.

End here luhhx

Bye my readers :)

Bham Bham Bham~~

a brand new me

i gonna try and go bak to the me..

in-the-past...

possible or not?

idk too....

2008-09-22T23:09:00.005+08:00

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li peng : tqtq ^^ <3

sze hua : lolx jz lucky niax mahhx.... wun be so lucky tis time ):

marmie : yea~~ <3>

Hazel(19/9) : l0lx welcome back from mia ;D

Hazel(20/9) : haahx npnp ^^ u're welome~

Hazel(21/9) : LMAO!!! thx for taqqing for often lor >:D

Hazel(21/9) : maii lahh.... that quiz sibeh sianx or :X

ggg : who are you? pls tag a normal tag :\

sze hua : my eng sux lahh ): can get one ime highest very happy le :D

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l0lx... 3 days nvr post luhhx

too lazy :P

whenever want to post then feel sleepy so went to bed :X

okk start all over from friday >:D

Friday :

Ms Cross giv us the art exam's question zzz

it shld be given 3weeks before the exam lor,

she now thn giv us...

all becox of tat ms yuen!

so irresponsible lahh D:

she go oversea

tis ms cross like new come de teacher,

so now thn giv us :\

after sch sze hua ask me accompany her go buy her lunch

thn lata she and hazel walk with me tgt bak to my hse LOL

funny luhhx, they look around thn say my photo whn i was young ><

thn hazel say my hse looks like fc hse? o.0 damn damn!! i duno him lor D:

Satureday and Sunday nothing much to say...

i did my homework at the last minute agn LOL

today was ehh...

okk okk?

morning go for hall assembly

congratulate the Yip Pin Xiu get gold and silver

thn li peng say she not feeing well :\

so during reccess we accompany her go find ms murty..

but she not at the staff room,

so ask mrs poon for help :

thn blah blah blah

li peng go home liaox

eng do compre

thn he bois joke around wif mr tan

funny lahh

they make him cant tolerate them L0L

thn math go through algebra :\

so sianx lor....

all we noe liao de still go through D:<

thn mr tay say we dun wan listen to him

so giv us ws do -.-

thn very tired tak sweet from eunice

thx to her lahh~~

the sweet really wakes me up alot

i chiong through all the question ^^

findsit very simple whn my mind is clear *haahx*

kies end here liao

tml chinese oral *hellzxc*

SAYONARA~~

Ehh

tag lahh...

ue like c my tagbox so lonely mehx?

T-T

2008-09-18T22:53:00.016+08:00

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joy : haha tq yeye~ ^^ <33
marmie : iLu too!!! <33
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today vocab test i gt 17 and half wooots
cox jin wen mark my paper
thn she go write LZB thr l0lx!!
Mr Tan say abv 15 de gt lollipop
thn shao kiat go say 14 gt anot
mr tan tell us eat finish liao stick giv him wakaka~
ok lahhx thn blah blah blah
near time go for d&t and home econ liao
crystal and li peng keep say nervous l0lx
aiya no nid scare one lahhx
not scary at all lor :\
today d&t last period gt quiz
thn alicia call my name
thn tat mr dave walao eh!!
giv me difficult question siax D:
thx to Kavin, Karen, Eunice and Alicia lohh
they keep hinting me
but my ear duno y
cant hear properly D:<
thn they say bed
i duno hear until wad D:
thn alicia say sry tat she sabo me till so cham
nvm larhhx
i dun blame ue de ^^
is tat dave prob D:<
giv me so diff de question
thn YL tell me can look at textbook
EHHx!! i noe lahhx!!
jz tat i duno which page gt the drilling machine thing wad!!
gt i wun c mehx?
i not that dumb okay?!!
finally d&t end \(-.-)/
go kitchen room wait for the home econ ppl
wanna c their work ;P
thn took a look at li peng, crystal and jia hui's work ;D
seems nice lehhx~~
ok lahhx
end here luhh ^^
buaiix my reader!

rmb wad i say? :\

T-A-G-!

is a must to tag

ppl tat defy will be killed by ME!! ;P

2008-09-17T23:03:00.003+08:00

tags are replied bak to the person's blog :)
alrite today was well same old boring day....
tat chinese teacher nvr come
thn another cher come in,
he odd larh D:
tok so much
lata tell us say nvr do finish no mark D:<
walao eh!!
whr gt like tat one!! smack him ah!! :P
today ms murty flare up at us lahh...
so fierce lor
but she let the gurls and some bois go for reccess first
a few bois was ask to stay behind :\
well well
mayb cox she old liaox
temper not very good
so yep,
dun provoke her better
before she skins us alive :X
today after sch dismiss walk very fast come home ;D
but onli now thn i finish my eng homework tat was given on monday D:
i noe i'm a bad gurl tat likes to do last minute work :P
but alrite at least i finish it ^^
tml gonna be a looooooooong day
gt vocab test D:< boooorinnnng!!!
thn d&t soon gonna challenge the bois gurls muz win muz win >:D
camy today tell me tat we will haf ou chinese oral on hmm next tues
sooooooo fast?!!
Mr Cui din even once go through the chinese oral with us lor!!!
ok tat means we r unprepared! argggghhhhh!! *drop dead*
jz do our best bahhx....
ehhx... i wonder is tis time art test same as mid-year de... :\
if yes...Thn Whr Is Our Exam Question tat we r suppose to prepare?!!
keep chging art teacher
chg till we all oso sian liaox
cox different art teacher do different things -.-
now drawing teapot siax.....
sianx sianx...
kies end here liao
slp time!!
nitex my reader ^^ <33

ehhx!

read finish liao?

rmb to tag hor!

my tagbox will haf spiderwebs

and moss if ya stop tagging :P

2008-09-16T22:02:00.010+08:00

✰❤Tags Reply❤✰

joy : haha sure yeye ^^ i will post often de :) thx for tagging too <33

cherie : orh okk. sure :)

Jie Jie : haha ^^ npnp iLu too <333

marmie : ;D haahx~~ thx soooo much <33

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today was normal nth much :)

jz tat poor hazel fell into tat puddle of water during PE pathetic larh D:

thn she and jia hui go toilet wash up and chg :\

so we stop playing captain's ball

sit thr chit chat and crapz :D

thn assembly gt the student forum agn D:

so sianx lor...

drag until past time thn let us go D:<

thn start of the forum hor

a guy from sec 2 "attack" Mr Neethy siax so damn funny!!

he say y late-comers muz c mr neethy,

thn say he is a very irritating guy :B

ahahaha!! so damn funny larhhx!!

thn end hor all "attack" Ms Aw lmao~!

even gt ppl say she bias LOL?

blah blah blah thn end liaox

DM go up stage say any comments about teachers tell him LOL

thn gt ppl say DM emo

funny luhhx!!! :B

if not all this hor

i sure fall aslp lor :X

kies end here luhhx :)

nid go pack bag thn head to bed ^^

tml wan be full of energy for lessons :)

i will forget the past

and wun hold on to it anymore

it jz hurt me too much

too painful

i tink i shld jz let it go....

T-T

2008-09-15T22:39:00.009+08:00

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marmie : thx iLu too <33

Ken : NpNp ^^

cherie : sure, cyax in october bye :)

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Ohh. well i tink i better post a new post

before all my readers run away frm my blog agn D:

Now watching the chnl 8 ghost story show :}

it was actually taken and edited from Russell Lee's story :D

so yep tink the story quite interesting bahhx :)

hmm, EOY coming mayb i banning myself from comp bahhx

nid work hard hard to fight for a space in 2e1 :P

erm, sze hua sry tat i pissed ue off today :\

went over board so sry bout it ><

and yep hazel,

i will help u look out for songs about love

tat ue ask me to help ue to ^^ no worry yea ~.^

i will sure do wad i say before istart banning myself frm the comp :)

kies end here luhhx ^^

wanna enjoy the show ;}

2008-09-11T18:24:00.003+08:00

my blog dead dead luhhx!!
seems like no one tagging T-Tsob sobx
and yea forget bout tat larh :\
no one wanna tag i cant do anyth oso :3
so yep let's tok bout today bahhx :
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Mr Tan flared at us today ><"
he's so damn fierce!!
i had neva seen him so frustrated before :O
he was scolding us about our complaint letter writing...
seriously, i tink mostly treat it as a game?
not really puttinq their heart in it...
thn whn Mr Tan was toking i fall into a dreaming time -.-
thn he suddenly say until tense problem and call my name,
walao scared me!
c frm my marks i oso noe is my tense tat is pulling my marks down
cox for task fulfilment i scored 8/10
but my tense, grr!!! too careless liao larh me -.-
gonna learn to treasure Mr Tan liaox
cox he say wun be teaching us next year :(
duno next year new eng teacher good or not lehhx....
hope and wish he is as good as Mr Tan :}
tml no choir~~~ wooooooottss
finally can go home early (^_^)V
so yar, end here :]

P.S : This skin will onli be awhile derhhx, gonna chg agn D: is not very good.

i'm still loving euu

2008-09-06T22:49:00.013+08:00

+~*Happiie Birthday Jie*~+

today my beloved jie's birthday ^^
jie~~ hope ue forever cheerful, youthful, beautiful and cuteful? okie? ~.^
woke up haf breakfast thn rest awhile go bath,
after tat go meet mummy
thn head towards K Box :}
cut the cake thr :D yummy~~chocolate cake ^^
took pics but i lazy upload ;P
after K go eat buffet
the prawns so sweet but is cold de :S
but most of us complaint bout the food...
thn the waitress keep tak off my plates D:
the plates tat i use to throw rubbish she keep tak away!!
thn i left wib one last plate i pull a crab onto my plate xP
leave it thr thn she wun tak off liao :D
head to Takashimaya after dinner
shop shop around thn go home luhhx
okies~~ tat's the end of it ^^

look at my last wish

mr yiong and mr goh

grant it pls :(

2008-09-03T23:17:00.005+08:00

today woke up at 9am++
after my bath
notice my phone no batt liao ><
so w8ed bout 3-5mins for it to charge :P heng it lasted till we head for YMS
reach sch
tell sze hua wait for her at the foyer
w8ed v.longg lor D:
sms her agn she say waiting for her breakfast D:<
so went up to music room with camy,
lata go down with camy buy her breakfast,
thn met sze hua they all :DD
thn blah blah blah crapx till choir start
train for 1hr 30min
thn dismiss for lunch :}
i din eat
ask hazel help me buy drink forgot pay back her, her money ><
tak key frm Mrs Poon so we can chg in music room :D
cox toilet wet wet thn the dress very long :\
so yea, took turns to go in
thn the bois come up say we selfish D:
sad for ur lor
hu ask ur to be bois ;]
lady first mahhx never heard be4 mehhx :D
thn chg finish
w8ed for rehersal wib the pianist.
after tat 10mins toilet brk
thn gather at foyer tak photo.
actually planned to sit wif sze hua lor
thn tat stupid yiong kiong on the bus deciding hu and hu sit tgt
put me sit wif tat CHERIE!!!
PISSED ME OFF LEHHHXX!!!!! D:<
DAMN UE D:
I HAF PHOBIA TOWARDS HER LEHHX!!! D:
pls dun say i judge her by her look hor!
if ur wan say my limit very low
thn ur can go and sit with her and TEST how far ur limit can go
she sit with her legs wide open which took up half of my seat!!
and she din even notice lehx D:
throughout the journey keep singing J'entend Le Moulin
wonder izzit she dun understand english!
Mr Yiong alrdy say preserve our voice for the exam
or izzit she deaf!!
thn she cough on my face!! argh!! damn her!! so dirty!!
camy, ue tell me she come frm rich family?!
thn y dun her parents let her go for some manners lesson?
and wadever happen on the bus she keep lauff and lauff
thn keep making all sort of funny noise!!
almost spoilt my mood for the exam larh D:
worse part
whn the bus reach hor
she so gan jiong wan get down lor
ue can c her scrambbling up even b4 the bus stop
tis sentence i feel like saying to her larh
but regard her as my senior i nvr say...
"U SITTING WITH GHOST MEHX?!WAN GET DOWN SO FAST FOR WAD?!"
she was pushing me ue noe?!
thn suay suay exam oso stand next to her
but nehx mind jz lean closer to shu na side.
the silence in the auditiorium room keep leaving a buzz in my ears
very uncomfortable T-T
UNLUCKY PART COMES!!
I SAT WITH HER THE JOURNEY BAK TO SCH!!!
ARGH!! GOD UE HATE ME OSO DUN TORTURE ME LIKE TAT MAHHX!!
Mr Yiong came up bus tell us the examiner, Mr Johnson, said tat we r adorable haha :D
thn alrite tell ur wad happened throughout the journey..
she start singing agn!! D:
her voice is so rough,
dun sounds nice at all!!
at least if it sounds nice i can enjoy it,
but tis not the worse....
she dun even noe some part!!
ue can hear her mumbling!!
thn ppl on INDIAN SONG is really indian song mind ue!
she oso wan folo the rythm and dance,
thn the seat keep shaking!
i really feel like scolding her
but too bad
i giv equal respect to all my seniors
but dun push me too far
i haf my limit oso!! and i burst out today ><
thn tis time get down the bus
SHE PUSHED ME LEHHX!!
I ALMOST TRIPPED UE NOE?
(i was sitting on the outside)
thn nvm i 忍。
she nvr say sry lor
thn keep pushing while i was trying to walk infront.
eh!! we wearing long dress lehx
easy to step on it and trip lor
wad kind of senior r ue?
whn i giv ue all my respect?
thn i shout out all my sorrows to camy while choir walk towards the library to tak photo
ok i admit i shout out very loud
she was jz behind and i din care
i was really pissed off.
thn proceed to tak photo
i dun wan to stand near her luhh in case later tell me stand wif her tak the photo
the first pic finish,
thn go tak the second one
take at the grass patch infront of the library
STOOD BESIDE HER!!
no choice i gt no whr to stand.....
Mrs Poon say head closer,
she was standing on my left hand side
thn she wan put her hand onto the right side of my face
and wan to pull my face closer to her but i siam
PLS HOR DUN TOUCH MY FACE HOR
WAN ME STAND CLOSER TO UE?! W8 LONG LONG LARH!!
SERIOUSLY FROM START OF CHOIR TILL NOW
I HAVEN HATE A SENOIR SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH
SHE IS THE FIRST
AND I HOPE IS THE LAST!! D:
i hope ue stay in the xpress stream hor?
so i dun hab to c ue for 4 years D:<
and sze hua i wun blame ue tat i sit with her
is not ur fault. :)

2008-09-02T23:05:00.011+08:00

today reach sch at around 7.45am++

thn waited outside the classroom with alicia and lipeng for the oral to start

thn realise both lim cher and yong liang are in the 2nd grp tat comes for the oral

so later Mr Tan call us go 1T2 classroom :\

our examiners are : Mr Daryl Toy and Mrs Ong

strangely....

they both laughed at wad i said ><

was it really so funny?

i was jz plainly describing the scene

and trying to have the conversation in proper english

cox whn she ask me question i replied ya x(

gt one time cant hear wad she say thn i say huh ><

i'm dead meat!! zzz

hope i wun fail my oral!

After oral met Jac half way whn i was heading towards the canteen to find alicia

Jac Jac ue sure can pass de dun worry

btw...

y 1e2 ppl say Mr Tan fierce ah?

ue look at his face,

so friendly and cute :P

he sure giv ur high high marks de xD

went to the office at third floor to put our eng file in Mr Tan's cabinet x]

thn went down

met qing qing at the parade square

so went to ispace tgt

to practise our songs. :}

sms sze hua

tell her come for choir

and gratefully,

she and hazel passed the audition!!! wooooots~

so yea good luck for tml's actual examination ^^

after choir tink very long if i shld attend tml exam or not

thn jie tell me is important

sze hua tell me the advantages of goin :

so ya, i decided to go...

even though seriously i dun feel like goin

but i haf worked so damn damn hard for tis examination

i'm not going to giv up the last minute

and ue noe wad?

mr goh and mr yiong

alrdy said we might pass wif and average

tat's a gd gd news!!

i wun giv up at tis moment :)

i am gonna do my best tml

and try to get a merit >:D
kies below r jz some random pic

bout the start of 7th month, my camptoy :P

x--look at the mess of offerings

and more mess!!
poor him cleaning up the mess alone :'( {top pic/bottom 2pics}My Camptoy~!!

2008-09-01T19:03:00.003+08:00

wee~~ back frm choir :D
today instructor nvr flare up at us love love
mayb partly oso becox of the teachers' day cake haha
Yiong Kiong,LiYing,MeiLing,SiewPing and mayb other seniors
prepared a cake for Mrs Poon, Ms Koh, Mr Goh and Mr Yiong,
thn on the cake is 4 candles
it was meant to be one of them blow one,
but in the end
tink is Mr Goh and Ms Koh too shy to blow :P jz predict ahh
so end up onli Mr Yiong blew one and Mrs Poon blew all the other 3 of it :D
thn saw Mr Goh smiling mind ue, is damn rare to c him smile!
thus
the prac went on smoothly
and very little scolding ^^
oso gratz shermaine and camy gt into the grp 2 ^^
Hazel y ue dunwan come!!! D:<>
thn during brk time, all go tak cake :D onli a few din eat it
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and yea.....
camy was damn damn bad today T-T
say w8 me at the bus stop
thn raining but i still walk to the bus stop find her
but she not thr
call her she tell me she walk to the bridge luhhx sobbx
so bad!!!
but in the end forgiven her :P
walk home and crapx tgt :) ♥♥
on the way help mummy buy strepsils and lemon barley
thn reach home ;}
kies end here
buaiix buaiix :}

2008-09-01T11:24:00.001+08:00

bored
bored
BORING!!!
though my holiday alrdy started,
i still got to go bak to sch!! damn it
i wanna stay at home lehhx!!! D:ewwww
tuesday go bak for eng oral thn after tat got to rush to choir
and wad's more o.O
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I HAVEN BUY MY BLACK SHOE D:<>
shld i fake sick and dun go choir :\
kies shld end here, meeting up with camy lata at the bus stop thn walk to sch -.-
tink of goin sch i'm alrdy half sianx liaox :X
keep singing the same thing my throat soon canot tahan luhhx...
hao luhhx
Bye Bye my reader ~.^
posting agn at nite :)

2008-08-26T23:26:00.001+08:00

+~*Happy Birthday Alicia*~+ :}
today is alicia's bday went to sch hazel tell me thn noe de :X
thn i wish her telling her i gt no present for her :P
so onli wish her can get into ABRSM grp truly she did~!! wee~~~~
well onli after i attend today choir thn i noe i am alrdy in the ABRSM grp since i am in grp 2 zzz
argh today try the performance dress so ugly lor!!! like shit :X
oh well and is a embarassing trying of the dress -.-
hmm today the female pianist tat will accompany us to the ABRSM came,
thn seniors say Mr Goh flirt wif her hahaha
well tat time was tense so a small joke was great :D
hmm any way,
the pianist hor
tell us sing J'entend Le Moulin faster -.-
ppl tat are interested can go search for it and listen...
hmm, i tink is much faster than normal spd guax...
we all sang like siaox
today choir was bad ><
and yea sometinq to get happy about i was almost done wif my D&T
Fang Cheng help me wib cutting the human shape
but cant stick T-T
cham liao larh i duno wad to do wif it
mayb tml go get super glue to paste it :P
i am left wif not choice :/
well end here end here
buaiix all :}
time to slp (^_^)V

2008-08-25T18:15:00.003+08:00

today stayed bak to do up the D&T camptoy :}
muahaha crapz alot wif alicia,camy and hazel ^^
but crapz till i nid do last minute work ><"
the teacher keep come to our table tell us pack up...
is not even time yet lor!!! let us do awhile more will die mehx? :/
anyway i onli do till the frame part
still gt to paint, cut out the thing de shape thn make the camp :3
sooo much more to do ><"
well tml will be the ABRSM 2nd audition!!
waaa!!! T-T i dun wanna get it :/
cox nid wear long black pants for the examination!! gross,ewww, PUKE
i jz dunwan go for tat T-T
my dream perish boohoo!!
kies end here bahhx
i still nid do the get-well-soon card for eunice and teachers' day card for ms murty -.- will post up the picture lata ^^ though my art sux :/ jz bear wif it kies ~.^
and oh ya!!!
great news great news ~~
hazel lost her first kiss to...
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a paper bag!!
muahahahaha
is so damn funny lor
she wad pissed off by me keep sayinq :P
and hazel i kept my promise tat i will post tis up wakaka~!!

2008-08-23T18:39:00.001+08:00

waa...soo long i nvr post liao :\
i was not really busy jz tat bak to the old time i was lazy :P
hmm...anyway i had successfully make hazel worried for the suprize i will giv her on her bday
wakaka
she kept begging me to tell her the suprize siax so funny lor
and oso ABRSM is jz 9 more days to go D:
OMG!! i dunwan to go liaox....
muz wear until so formal i cant tahan...
i rather w8 for next year de SYF :(
hmm well i was in the grp2 which has the highest possiblity to go into the ABRSM...
was quite sad tat my frenz cant get into the grp2 wib me ><
i jz hope they can pass the 2nd audition and get into the exam alrtie (:
cheer up my frenz and i hope i will failed it :P dun tink tat i am kuku or wad
is really damn stress to get into the exam and it was predicted by our instructor, Mr Goh, tat we will fail it
so wad for go for it :(
is pointless now
work so hard in the end his prediction is we will fail
really very pek chek one lehx
imagine
ue sing till ur throat almost soar liao end up ue failed it T.T
well end here luh
my oral examination seems like will crush wif the choir holiday de practise :(

2008-08-12T23:46:00.002+08:00

lOlx is so long since i last post a proper post D;
dun blame me for that ok? kind of busy recently...
well today wad kind of a fruitful day except for the thing tat happen whn day end
let's start~
during choir Mr Yiong praised me 2x make me face red ><
so paiiseh i was not used to ppl praising me
but well mrs poon say mayb next week audition for ABRSM
hahx...i am anxious ><
i scare i cant pass it *sobs*
anyway tis post was meant to thx mr yiong larh :D
ue save me once and praise me twice
i lurve ue <3
dun get wrong hor~!
i meant by student to instructer de love ^^

210407 -- 120808 two dates i will always rmb...

2008-08-08T21:12:00.002+08:00

wee~~ 2OO8 Beijing Olympic officially started~!!!
Goo Goo Team Singapore ~.^ all dahhx best <33

2008-08-05T23:10:00.001+08:00

aww~~!!! today is a perfect perfect lucky day for me~~~!!!!
i'm sooo happy!!!
i can finally no nid to sit wif tat irritating senior
aiya my frenz will noe hu i meant alrite :)
people tat pass past tis post pls dun anyhow guess cox ue r gonna get me into trouble ><
all thanks goes to Mr Yiong alrite? :D
if not for him asking the senior to go behind and the other to come in front
i would haf suffer a mental break down after today's practise >:(
ue saved me yea Mr Yiong thx lods!!!!!!!
phew jz as i was tinking how long more i had to sit wif her
and emo whenever tinking i gt to sit wif her
and mr yiong chged our sitting position!! (^_^)V
i am so damn damn happy~~!!
i almost fly up to the sky for being so happy ;D
weee~~ gratz me hor my frenz ~.^
thx Alicia, LiPeng, Hazel and Sze Hua for trying to cheer me up
and helping me tink solution ;)
tqtq~~
ahahaha
pls bear wif my madness :DD
cox ue wun noe the unhideable happieness ^^

2008-08-04T22:53:00.000+08:00

wee~~
today went to watch [Money Not Enough 2] wif mummy~~
soooo funny lor the movie
but gt some parts very sad ><
thn today eyes so tired!!!
during sch we hab been using comp for half a day
gosh...
now so sian of computer :X
thn watch the [Why am i so stubborn?] in youtube
but...damn...
it is still not the full series yet...
4 more episode to go...
which well, still haven yet uploaded -.-
alrite alrite short post :(
i noe my blog is damn damn bored without pictures >:(

i've been dreaminq and dreaminq, wishinq and wishinq for ur return to my side~

2008-07-31T20:30:00.000+08:00

i suddenly found out tat my classmates were so helpful towards each other eh :P
tis is wad happened :
during math lesson thn someone's Hp rang
thn all started coughing and laughing jz to cover up the volume of the phone
haha
thn Mr Tay so silly!!
thoght he done the question wrong and we were lauffing at him
ROFL
thn another person's Hp rang during the chinese lesson..
tat time Mr Cui was scold HT,RQ,JW and YL
thn he turn bak and ask us y lauff
issit we doin funny faces behind him
ahahaha
c'mon~! Cher relax larh ;D
we jz trying to cover up the phone volume
no lauff at ue and do funny face behind of ue :DD
thn Mr Cui talk so hurtful lor...
he say tat 1e1 reputation was spoilt cox of the 4 of them abv...
not tat i trying to help them..
but oso no nid say until like tat mahx...
1e1 isn't perfect alrtie?
in fact in reality no one is perfect derhx

--Today--

how many times do ue wanna tell ur bf i am mad?
did ue ever ask me wad happened to me or not?
at least whn jie or my frenz c me low mood they BOTHER to ask me wad happened ue noe?
being ur sister is the worse mistake of my life
wad sins haf i done in my previous life tat i end up having such a elder sis like ue?
if ue duno tat i jz woke up frm my slp
and tat is the way i will tok whn i jz wake up
thn dun anyhow say ppl mad!!
ue tink ue very normal huh?
ue oso siao one alrite?!
ue buay song de time ue vent anger on me!
i noe since i dun treat ue as my elder sis i din expect ue to treat me as ur mei oso
since ue like saying me mad
y dun send me go woodbridge
ue tink ur bf good person izzit?!
he sux too alrite?
ppl play game tok so much for wad
as if he expert like tat!
so pro come play c if he can even survive for 5mins or not
he blind izzit? cant c my comp is lagging
he tok even noisier than a buzzing bee siax!
i jz hope ue two will jz shuddup if ur dun even not wad is happening!

2008-07-27T22:39:00.000+08:00

tada~ tish the image hazel help me to edit and put it in her blog ^^

thx yea hazel u're so sweet ;)

today was suppose to go to bugis wif mummy and jie to go buy Qing Qing de bday present
thn mummy say she coming home at around 7pm
thn i oso lazy so nvr go buy ><
so around evening went to 7-11 wif jie and bought cupnoodle the the japanese prawn ball to eat :)
thn after tat edited my blog de thing --> the melody and tagbox part :D
thn go help edit the class blog de code ==
soo damn sianx!!
cox the code very messy i cant even c which one connected to which -.-
thn lazy so i close it up :P
anywae i duno i can so fast be tired of hopping around blogs ><
thn wad to do next whn i'm bored ah?!!!
mayb i turn guai? o.o?
and whn i bored i study?
LOLx dun even noe possible or not :P
kays larh nth to post liao

[Counting Down..]

4days more to watch movie :D
14days to mummy's bday
24days to Hazel's bday
30days to Alicia's bday
36days more to september holuday
38 days more to ABRSM :(
41days to Jie's bday
42days to Sze Hua's bday

LOLx noe is quite lame larh but nth to do mahx :)

ue my drug and i am soo addicted to ue :)

2008-07-27T01:29:00.000+08:00

oh well, update for choir... =.=
Mr Goh was saying he will hold the audition for ABRSM soon ><
gosh!!
tat moment got 3 feelings rush into my mind lor!
first : nervous => scare cant pass ><
second : excited => abt the way the audition is held
n oso cox is my first audition for examination oso ><
3rd : scared => cox Mr Goh nvr say whn hold the audition!! thn ltr suddenly hold whn we unprepared

End of the News for Choir T-T

Today:

went to sch jz like any other sch day de time lor
i am soooo tired!! :(
thn met MeiJun,Alicia and other choir de membs thn walk tgt to the Kalam Ayer ABC water front
ahaha whn i heard the ABC lauff till i stomach ache siax!
does it stand for adorable, beautiful and clean? o.O LOLx
well stay thr for 2hr++ wif nth to do thn almost reach 10am liao thn call us to dance
dance finish take the NeWater and cake thn can go home liaox
LOLx blur me forgt bring my ez-link card -.-
end up walking bak to school
thn walk home!!
my legs so suan! >:(
actually today QingQing bday lor
i nvr day "Happy Birthday" to her
some more trouble her to bring me bak the sch
sry ya QingQing
but tml goin to bugis and buy her present :)
cox promise her gib her belated bday present ;D
Oh well actually performance will be on the next week's Sunday ;)

-daR- rocks the house LOLx

2008-07-24T21:13:00.001+08:00

well...here the post hazel (:
since ue were saying i looooooonnnggg time nvr post ;)
erm...Choir : got the news frm Mr Goh tat the ABRSM will be held in 3rd of Sept??!! o.O
sooo fast!!!
whr gt time for us to prepare!!!
and i roughly guess how Mr Goh and Mr Yong will conduct the audition lor...
hope i guess the correct way larh ><
Qing Qing's bday on tis Saturday pathetic siax...
tat day gt choir practise for the Kalam Ayer performance
Hehx but gt tell her will gib her belated bday present ^^
and erm...our nice nice de history teacher Mr Goh left liaox..(ps ah i so late thn say ><)
now come a Ms Teo...tell us to do name tags..-.-
thn say everytime gt her history lesson must put in front the table...
wan noe our name say larh so troublesome waste paper do name tags siax!
jialat! now global warming still waste paper :X
kies larh hazel short post alrite >.^
if not will turn in to very naggy de person :P

2008-07-20T16:49:00.000+08:00

1. The person who last tag you is: Hazel :)
2. Your relationship with him/her is: Bestiie ;D
3. Your five impression of him/her: she...violence to me T.T sweet, dramatic xP music lover and <3
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you: she took my bag for me xD
5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you: I love ue? o.O well she was joking
6.If he/she become your lover, you will: er... i will advice her to love alwin instead :D
7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be: stop being violence to me ><
8. If he/she become your enemy, you will: obvious i will ignore her :)
9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be: Quarrel agn lor -.-
10. The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is: Help alwin to fall in love for her :X
11. Your overall impression of him/her is: elmo lover =.=
12. How you think people around you will feel about you?: well.. a gossiper and a good listener -.^
13. The characters you love of yourself are: i am retarded :DD
14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are: too stuborn
15. The most ideal person you want to be is: eh...no one lehx -.-
16. For people that care and like you, say something to them: I love ur damn damn lodss
17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you:
1) Sze Hua
2) Crystal
3) Li Peng
4) Alicia
5) Shu Yi
6) Eunice
7) Hazel
8) Camy
9) Qing Qing
10) Alwin
18.Who is no.6 having relationship with? Eunice --> nobody, she's guai kia ^^
19. Is no.9 a male or female? Qing Qing => female onli one in my list is boi siax
20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? Hazel and Alwin => weee~~!! the best ting in the whole world :D
21. What is no.2 studying about? Crystal => we two study same things alrite :)
22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? Li Peng => Just now :)
23. What kind of music band does no.8 like? Camy => rock? i not sure ><
24. Does no.1 have any siblings?SzeHua => one younger bro one elder sis ;D
25. Will you woo no.3? Li Peng => eeek!! no way!! she my bestiie
26. How about no.7? Hazel => gosh nono!!! ><" she my bestiie too :D
27. Is no.4 single? Alicia => of cox she is..wad ue expecting eh :DD
28. What is the surname of no.5? Shu Yi => idk ><
29. What 's the hobby of no.4? Alicia => very sry i duno ><
30. Does no.5 and 9 get along well? Shu Yi and Qing Qing => go ask them lor how would i noe anywae :3
31. Where is no.2 studying at? Crystal => BSS duh!!! my classmate siax
32. Talk something casually about no.1: SzeHua => she...eh...she serious in work bahx
33. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8? Camy => yes? cox she my gan ma :D daughter for mother <3
34. Where does no.9 live at? Qing Qing => not so busybody to ask her *bleh*
35. What colour does no.4 like? Alicia => seriously i duno much bout her ><
36. Are no.5 and 1 best friend? Shu Yi and Sze Hua => mayb ^^ hope they are~
37. Does no.1 have any pets? SzeHua => no bahx..
38. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? Hazel => LOLx i dun tink so :D mayb her admirers think so ^^
39. What is no. 10 doing now? Alwin i duno..y muz i care bout him eh? :3

**DECLARE**

i was kana force to do tis quiz by hazel T.T

2008-07-13T17:10:00.000+08:00

woah...2days no post entries le :(
so..here's dahh update ^^

--11July,Friday--
Mr Tan came into class and told us he tio sabo by his form class LOLx
he is soaking wet siax
pathetic him being treated sabo to celebrate his bday which falls on today :D
Hazel say if Mr Tan still teach us next year she gonna sabotage him too :(
oh well..to me he will be very pathetic if tio sabo two times a day...
art was boring ms du's better
tat ms yuen tok until i can fall aslp
so was thr joking wif Jin Wen

tat's it for friday

--12July,Saturday--
actually plan to go buy daddy's present with jie tgt de...
but lazy me slp too late so jie go buy the present herself
thn she went to do her FYP
alone at home playing games agn lor nth to do
but gt do finish my homework :DD
am not a pai kia ;)

end of my saturday T.T

so today was the same old boring day stay at home to rot agn ><
tml gt sch and common test is jz 2days away frm me!!
argh!! y are ue soooo near LOLx
ps abit sot sot in tis post :)

still 2mths away to ABRSM

Raylyn : erm...if gt pic i will post in entries de :D cox ue noe larh my pic ugly ><

2008-07-10T22:08:00.000+08:00

nothing special happened today... :(
just the same old school days that i had everydays
the science test was quite easy but still hope can pass larh :D

Counting down

one more week to common test :(
two more month to ABRSM :)

well today D&T we were ask to do research and complete the mind map...
thought Mr Dace will be showing us some real useful vids but in the end,
is just what tourist c when they r deciding which country to visit ><
thus got to go home do our own research lor....
my infomation for Sri Lanka and Malaysia still a blank siax!!! D:

-brOken heaRtx♥

2008-07-09T22:08:00.000+08:00

today sci lesson the ms tan so fierce siax!
ace corrections was done in red pen thn she say very messy so she threw his book on the floor
she like so frustrated lor...
thn literature tat time ms murty tell us to draw our dream hse LOL~!
like run out of idea cox dun even haf a dream hse in my mind siax...
today after reccess hor c the most shocking scene in my life, wei qin flare up lehx
nvr seen b4 lor
same class as him since P4 nvr c him so flare up b4
thn mr tay come in they stopped liaox
jun wei like gt cry cox wei qin was flaring all his temper on jun wei =.=
tml gt sci test :(
hope can pass it :D
count down 2mths more to ABRSM
o.O means the audition will be soon liao lor
scared scared scared!!!
wish can get into it and take part in the competition thn get gold :DD
thn choir will get gold b4 band lor :)

brOkeN heaRtx ♥

2008-07-09T14:12:00.000+08:00

today soar throat seems to got worse lor....
thn afternoon choir still continue to sing...
cox mrs. poon say if cant sing must sit on the floor thn hor whn other ppl standing i will be sitting siax...
like so paiiseh ><
tot tat gt the audition for ABRSM was so scared siax!!
but heng lor in the end dun haf cox if gt i dun tink my voice will pass the audition and thr will go my dream T.T
anywae~ thx sze hua for ur Clorets :) help me to maintain my throat wun too dry :DD
thn after choir i told sze hua and hazel i not going to speak tml xD
lolx~~ possible or not i duno le (:
btw thx alicia oso~ for ur strepsils :D
right sweets at the right timing girls ;)

2008-07-07T22:24:00.000+08:00

today work up at 9++ early uh? well...slept at 2am the prev day lOlx 7hrs slp enuff luh :D
finish up my homework killed a tiny bit of my brain cells yea :)
thn keep playing cabal lor...finally lvl 11 liao
silly me siax accidentally click wrg thing...learn a new ~~useless~~ skill....
duno got use or not lor nid c future nid it mahx :D
anywae thx huiwen for linkiinq up yar ^^

stressed~~!!! Head almost burst siax..T.T

2008-07-06T22:37:00.000+08:00

today actually started out so nice lor...playing cabal thn finish up my eng hw...but thn hor went to the chinese physician agn to check on my leg de injury,thn she giv me tablets to eat siax!! so damn bitter!!!
during evening tat time hor lipeng ask me to teach her how to post video onto her website...thn hazel say she cham cox she nvr get the chinese homework de question..walao...thn half way teachin lipeng half way sending hazel the question, thn whn sze hua on hor ask her link me...thn tok tok tok until she ask me wad to do for the website ><
thn quite pro siax they help me cure my slight fever~! tink until i sweat :DD LOL shld i get happy or shld i get angry siax? ><

my blog--ALIVE AGN~

2008-07-05T20:03:00.000+08:00

wee~ i've changed my blog frm head to toes(o.0?) lolx wadever, i jz chged it totally :D
well went to choir practise ytd and sick today ><
visit my blog often ya~ gonna post everyday :DD

Kitty♥

Too Late.

Choir.

Extra.

Surprises.

Decision.

Scarred.

Mistake.

Fair.

Going berserk

Texts

When I'm gone..

Pulse of heartache

Bottling Things Up

A Killing Love..

Clue-less..

♥Heartbeat~♥

Detest

Overboard

Gave up \(-.-)/

Decision :B

♥Am i holding on too tight?♥

Is Your Luv True?

Feeling of being cheated

Clearing dust again ><;

The HAZEL post(;

Lie, lies and million lies...

My wonderful birthday~

Jie Jie iMu D;

Testing out the Windows Live Writer

tired,sian,no mood,sad ):

TIRED! HATE MS MURTY!

Relaxed Day~~ KO-MO-CHI~~~

The Odd Feeling...

stressed~~!!! Head almost burst siax..T.T

my blog--ALIVE AGN~

Relaxed Day KO-MO-CHI~